Had a day full of ups and downs.

Kick-started my day by going jogging with the boyfriend and sister; east coast was certainly crowded to the max! Haven't been running for a long time now..and the morning run felt good. At least, before my usual stitches kicked in.

Anyhows, we went home after to pick mummy up to go for lunch. Intended to try out this place called thai pan at mandarin gardens, which my sister practically swears has damn good food at affordable prices.

Really kind of regretted that decision. Even if the food did turn out pretty good. Especially the butter squid.

Got lost driving there and, to cut a long story short, had one of the inevitable fights with my mum. Right in front of my boyfriend, no less. I was totally torn between anger and embarrassment. Ohwells.

But I must really give him credit for his presence; I've never seen my mum's anger dissipate so quickly before. And I've missed having a peacemaker in our family.

The day got better after lunch..stayed out of my mum's way to avoid her ire, and ended up catching bodyguards and assassins.

I swear this show has gotta be one of those with the most star-studded cast, except that many of them have such little screen time, I wonder how are they paid really. By the second or what? I think I saw michelle reis for all of 10 seconds, beautifully dressed in some red outfit, with tears shining in her eyes, this glow around her and then poof! The show continues. >_<

Personally thought that nicholas tse did a fairly decent job in this show, though I've never really been a fan of his. And it's quite a nice change to see donnie yen start out as someone way less than a hero.Though of course, surprise surprise, he's still quite the heroic guy in the end.

And leon lai, I just cannot believe. He looked absolutely...unrecognisable. Hahaha. Couldn't decide between rolling my eyes at his kungfu prowess in the movie, or get emotional at his sad fate. Heh.

Not a super fantastic flick - probably not worth the price of a weekend movie ticket - but still pretty alright nonetheless.

What is really worth paying 10bucks for, is avatar. That show rocks!

I wanna catch sherlock holmes though! And alvin and the chipmunks 2. Hee.

Am so not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow after the super long weekend..sighh. Going to be utter madness; I just hope mb and I can leave earlier tomorrow and come home for dinner.

What will keep my monday blues away?

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12:30 AM

And it's now officially another year to the next Christmas season. Haha.

Xmas this year was a little better than expected! The company party was filled with good food and fun, and don't ask me how come the world is so small, but mb and I ended up as each other's secret santa. Our colleagues insisted the gift exchange was rigged. LOL.

Got a couple of really nice gifts this xmas..and my darling got for me a bag which we saw at river island sometime back, but I didn't wanna buy because of the price tag. He's getting really good at surprises. Yayyy. =D

We spent xmas eve with a couple of his friends; dinner was at a japanese restaurant in vivo before we headed to clarke quay for the countdown. Didn't club in the end, but we found something more exciting to do: snow spray fights!

That boy ended up buying a whole carton of snow spray, will you believe it. He said it's more worth the money than going clubbing. HAHA. And so, from wanting to stay clean since I was dressed up, I ended up joining the fray and being doused in snow spray and colourful ribbons from other people who had the same idea of fun as he did. Heh.

But it was really fun! He really went crazy with the countless cans of spray. Lol. Totally worth the soapy, foamy snow; I think maung captured alot of shots of the few of us running around spraying everyone else. =p

What can I say, mb just has this natural ability to socialise with complete strangers; over a mountain of snow, no less. There was this guy who came over to us after our snow fight and gave him a can of beer to "bottoms up" to. Haha. And so we made temporary acquaintences with strangers in that hour of fun. =D

I think I shall stay away from pretty dresses and glam make-up for future occasions like this; I'd just ruin them all. Wahaha.

Can't wait for the new year countdown party! We still have half a carton of snow spray to play with. =p

Went for little josh's baby shower yesterday; the star of the show was sleeping all the way. Lol. He is sooo cuteeee!

Today's kinda boring though..and the rain makes me feel like sleeping. Yawns. Feels like I'm wasting my saturday away, given that it's a rare long weekend. Come monday, it's going to be a nightmare at work since bb is on leave..ohwells. Better enjoy whatever's left of today and tomorrow. At least next week is another long weekend. Yipppeee.

Did a little clean-up of my room last night, and it's sooo much more presentable now. Still, I can't wait to officially move house and do up my own room!

Okays I'm just rambling nonsense here cos' I'm so bored..

Shall go watch my anime. =D

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3:38 PM

Instead of leaving early to have dinner with my boy and do last minute shopping for tomorrow's xmas party, I'm now stuck in office waiting for a food delivery which doesn't seem to be coming anytime soon. Plus, mb is over his head in work. Sighh.

I'm starving and cranky and my stupid colleague somehow makes me wonder if I offended him in some way, cos' he never does reply my questions. Damn bloody annoying.

And I think I have a problem getting along with designers and their artsy fartsy attitude. In the entire company, other than the non-designers, I think the only ones I can get along with..number about 3 to 4? The rest...let's not even go there.

Seems like tomorrow's party is going to be a dampening affair..for all our efforts at organising, the designers are stuck with alot of last minute work. Probably going to work through the party too.

In fact, there's a particular client who's been here for about 12 hours already. And still they show no signs of planning to leave. My god.

Looks like the games are gonna go to waste..makes me wonder why we went to all the trouble and even prepared prizes. Well no matter what, I'm leaving by 3pm and that's that. At least mb already has the tickets for avatar booked..I shall see how good the movie really is. Can't wait for the later half of xmas eve..movie plus dinner and countdown to xmas with my darling. =)

Heng my dayima traumatised me yesterday and today..means I should be in good enough shape to celebrate xmas! Wheee~

And xmas morning breakfast with mel! Just like last year. Hahaha. Yayyy. It's been waaaay too long bestie. We have a gazillion chapters of catching up to do. =)

Little josh's baby shower on xmas afternoon; yippee! Can't wait to see the little sweetie pie. =)

Sounds like the food delivery is coming at long last..guy just called! Lost again as usual. This location is really ulu to the max.

Been having the urge to job-hop lately; maybe it's time to rethink my options.

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9:10 PM

I think the weatherman's having mood swings.

It poured like free all day yesterday, and when I woke up this morning, the sun was shining like it won a million bucks. Less than ten minutes later, it started raining. And now, it's so brilliantly bright again. -_-

I sure hope bern and team managed to complete their 100km LTAW! The weather this year really didn't make things easy for them.

Am gonna miss the gathering with my girls later..sighh. Cos' I gotta attend sp's wedding dinner. Ohwells..hopefully I'll get to see them soon. Seem so distant lately.

Met up with BB yesterday to clear the last of our xmas gift shopping where, as usual, I bought a whole load of things. I think all she got was the gift for our company exchange. Lol.

She brought me to this place at international building to have our brows trimmed; the lady is good! Gave advice and asked for my opinions and preferences..she even covered up the redness from the plucking and drew my brows for me after. Definitely good service! Unlike what I've been through before with other beauticians, which put me off eyebrow plucking. Anyone who needs recommendation, get her card from me k? Haha. I'm a convert. =D

Haven't ironed the dress I'm going to wear tonight; have never been good with an iron in one hand and chiffon on the ironing board. The perils which come with wanting to look good..i.e. potentially burning a hole in some floaty fabric. =x

And my dayima is still not here yet! I keep guarding for it and wondering if it's going to hit me senseless when I'm out having fun or something..yucksy feeling. Sighh. If only it'll just come like clockwork without fail every month. Trying to plan my events around it is so annoying and worrisome.

The coming week promises to be a short one! Just three days of work and then it's glorious party time and freedom for the rest of the week! Looking forward to the company party and dressing up for it..hee. And there's little josh's baby shower on xmas day! It's a good thing I have things to occupy me this festive season. =)

And then the new year's going to arrive..new year, new start is what I always say. Need to get back to making resolutions and fulfilling them. I sure hope the coming year will be a better one for everyone.

Been doing some thinking over this weekend, and realised that maybe the advice a certain someone gave me is quite right.

Act like a gf, not a...best buddy.

Never really thought about it that way before, but it's quite true. I sense a talkathon coming up when the bf's back..need to set some things straight.

He's been a wonderful addition to my life, but sometimes I wish this addition can stand in my shoes and understand what goes on in my heart and head.

Well, we'll see how it goes. Don't know if it's good or bad, but I'm not particularly missing him. Haha. Helps to have a packed weekend. =)

Okays lunch awaits!

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12:31 PM

I don't wanna be one of those clingy girlfriends who can't survive without their boyfriends for the weekend.

But it's a little hard not to be disappointed when he delays his trip at the insistence of friends who want to meetup with him. Clubbing with nine girls, no less. It's not as if they'll be gone when he's back on sunday..

Well. Shall not be a selfish biatchhh who doesn't allow her bf to go out and have fun.

Perhaps I should find nine guys to go clubbing with too.

That's my inner demon speaking. The one named jealousy. Just ignore it.

And I thought it was bad enough he won't be around this weekend plus christmas.

I'm, like, listening to this argument between my inner angel and demon. It's almost funny how a thought from either will be met with an immediate retort from the other.

I think I'm stressed out from work. Yikes.

It's not easy trying to be an understanding girlfriend..who really means it when she says "it's okay!". I think half the time, the words come out automatically. To the extent I feel like I'm just role-playing someone I feel I should be. And not really being me.

I tell other friends/girls not to put up with nonsense or anything that makes them unhappy in a relationship (or anything else, for that matter), but it seems like I don't always practice what I preach. What a joke. Ha.

For the first time in my life, I'm actually feeling stress from having an other half who attracts the opposite sex like freee. The kind of attention he gets in a night out clubbing is probably more than all the times I've gotten any kind of attention at all.

No wonder my mum used to tell me not to date someone too good-looking or charismatic. Shucks.

Of course there are the good parts too..but today, I'm too tired to argue with the devil, so just let me be a bitchy, horrible gf who complains that her bf is not ideal enough. I'll pretend I never said anything after he comes back next week.

I seriously think I wouldn't be so sian without him around, after I move to the new house next year. That's when going home won't suck so muchh cos' it's actually a place I can call home, and do whatever I wanna do. Instead of now, in a tiny, temporary room in a huge, huge house but yet there's nothing I can do comfortably. It's so awkward to feel like a stranger in the place you live in.

Okays this is really enough complaints and grumbles for the night. Must be the PMS. Just praying for my dayima to faster come and go and let me stay happy during the festive season.

Because come 31 dec, I'm going to be sad first, before lifting my spirits at countdown.

And lately, the person I miss the most is not you.

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9:10 PM

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You baby

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
(So brightly everywhere)
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
(Laughter fills the air)
And everyone is singing
(oh yeah)
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me

Oh, I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
(all i'm asking for)
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is you

All I want for Christmas is you baby
All I want for Christmas is you baby

I absolutely loveee this song, especially during Christmas. And this year, it's so very true..my darling won't be around for xmas..this year and next. =(

Baby all I want for Christmas is you.

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11:53 AM

I must say, dinner tonight was well worth my procrastination of work till tomorrow. Obviously I'm going to be immensely bogged down once I go into office in a couple more hours, but dinner was fantastic! =D

Not only was the food good, so was the company! Haha. It was supposed to be a dinner treat from the bf and myself for uncle bob, but he insisted on picking up the tab. So much for a birthday gift. Now I gotta think of what else to get for him. Lol.

He was ever so entertaining...and certainly left an impression on the service staff. Haha. I learn oh-so-much from him everytime we meet up! Although I haven't known him long, his witty intellect and humorous personality are really a joy to be around.

And really, I don't know if it's an ang moh uncle kinda thing, but he has a way with service staff that people like you and I don't. It's a certain charisma I guess..that, and the fact that service to foreigners somehow tends to be a tad better here in Singapore. Hmm.

Well..I'm just glad he loved my restaurant recommendation. It's really wonderful to see people enjoying a meal so much. The hours simply flew by!

Shan't think about work, since it's gonna haunt me all day tomorrow anyway.

Still haven't completed my christmas shopping! Seems like I've bought alot, but at last count, I think I still need to get gifts for...one two three four five six people! Goshhh. I wonder if I will run out of time or money first. Heh.

Anddd..I still don't know what to get the bf. Shucks. What's worse is that last night he told me he can't wait to give me my xmas gift..meaning he's bought and wrapped it! When I asked him how did he know what to get for me, he said he isn't that lousy a boyfriend to not know what I want.

Now, in the first place, even I don't know what I want. And second, I'm racking my brains over what to get him. Howww!! Does that make me an ultra lousy gf. =x

Even my mum's bought a gift for him. And that's because she stole my idea. Bleahh.

I shall spend this week thinking..and this weekend buying! Perfect timing, since he won't be in spore. Wheeee.

My dress still hasn't arrived in the mail...crap I should have just opted for registered mail. Sighh. I don't want lost mail! =(

And my dayima should be coming anyday now..the moodswings are really terrible at work too. Especially when stress sets in. Faster come and leave me alone in time for xmas..*prays*

Super duper sleepy. Keep oversleeping nowadays; anymore and I'll need a fire alarm to wake me up every morning.

Goodnights!

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12:38 AM

My last post was certainly angsty..I can practically feel the anger radiate just by re-reading it. Haha.

Turns out that he really had an explanation for that one-liner reply that pissed me off to the max last night. And such a silly reason it was.

I guess I need to start getting used to the fact that whenever we quarrel, there's always a lag time cos' he prefers to let things cool down first before trashing it out. Whereas I'm the hot-headed one, always asking for a fight. Haha.

So, maybe I'm lucky that our characters are vastly different in this sense? Or we'd be fighting non-stop each time and allowing things to get worse.

Ended up sounding as though I'm the little kid at fault here. -_-'''

At any rate, I'm just glad that he gave me an answer I have no reason to be pissed at..but really. Had he told me earlier, could have saved us both quite abit of trouble and heartache.

Thank goodness for nick..or I'd probably have gone bonkers. Met him for dinner and a really nice long chat just now..have really missed our ever-interesting talks and insights on all things around us. Feels good to have some normalcy back in life. =)

And what a tiring day it's been..just wanna have a hot shower and curl into bed for a nice long sleep.

Goodnights.

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12:13 AM

Sometimes it's amazing how mad that stupid bf of mine can make me. And to think barely a couple of hours ago, I was just telling mel that everything's going great between us.

And there I was thinking that couples should be able to share everything with each other; the ups and downs of life, or simply just sharing. Like how I share with my friends all the time. Whether something happy, sad, worrisome or just whatever.

I texted him about something that was bothering me cos' I don't know whether to go for option A or option B; incidentally, this thing involves money. Not that it has anything to do with HIS money. All mine, and purely mine.

All I wanted was an opinion by sharing the issue at hand. Not only was he unconcerned about he, he actually replied with a line that made me start steaming.

"Why are you telling me this?"

Seriously!! Like wtf. Why am I telling him this?? Did I see wrongly or did he type wrongly?!

Can someone tell me what kind of a fucked up reply is that. When someone your other half shares a problem at hand with you, shouldn't you be showing some concern and giving advice, rather than asking, "why are you telling me this"?

This is really classic. I'm completely amazed and flabbergasted; I can't think of anything else except WTF?!

Really. Did he think I was going to start asking him for money just because the issue bothering me concerns dollar signs? Do I look like I treat him as my atm? Or my free-for-all bank?

He better give a damn fucking good explanation for that line. If I'm even interested in listening to whatever he has to say at all.

If you think I'm overreacting, give comments only if you know the whole story.

Why do I even waste my time telling sharing things with you. I'm better off talking to friends who actually care.

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11:08 PM

So much for mentioning in my last post that life isn't all about work. This entire week, the only day I left before midnight was probably Friday. And I even left office only at 9am one morning. To go to the client't place, no less, in the same outfit I was wearing for over 24 hours. Euwww. Staying overnight really killed me..I swear I was mostly a walking zombie who was slightly highh from lack of sleep. =x

Project from hell is ending tomorrow; please please please don't let anything screw up! For some strange reason, everything to do with this project just doesn't seem to go smoothly. Whatever could go wrong, went wrong, and whatever shouldn't have gone wrong, also went wrong. Sighh.

All my other projects have been neglected too...to the extent that BB and my boss have had to cover for me almost the whole week. Eeks. As what my bosses say, it's really not worth it. Big multinational client or not, I don't think we'll be in a hurry to take on anymore of their projects in the near future.

Anyhows..xmas is coming! I get overly excited when I see all the pretty bright lights and decorations, and endless "sale!" signboards. Haha. Tis' a month for my wallet to feel empty!

Got some christmas shopping to do..no idea where to start! Need to dig out time first..I don't wanna wait till the shops are all closed for xmas, then realise that I haven't done my gift-shopping yet. And there's pin's wedding just before xmas too..and little josh's baby shower..and and and..so many many things!

But so little money. =\

Ohh, caught new moon last night after a really filling steamboat dinner with the bf and my family. I think having him join us on family outings is really good for all of us..like what my sister says, having someone else around actually releases tension among us. In fact, all the times he's been out with us, we never once fought with our mum on those gatherings. Four is still a better number than three. =)

New moon wasn't really fantastic..I kinda expected better, given that I kept hearing comments about how it's better than twilight. And twilight really wasn't too good either. In the end, my verdict is that twilight actually contained more action than new moon..what a disappointment! At over 2 hours long, the show certainly managed to drag on as a filler between the first and third movies in the series.

I think the only thing worth watching was jacob the werewolf! Whether as an ordinary guy or a wolf, he's equally cuteee. HAHA. And absolutely do not like edward cullen. He looks like a patient with a severe case of vitamin D deficiency, a.k.a totally needing sunlight. Or maybe just pile on the blusher. I thought he looked ill enough in twilight..but he somehow managed to look even more sickly in this movie. AND constipated. Whatever happened to the handsome and brooding vampires in my fantasy?

Finally caught the trailer of avatar, and that was when it hit me: the reason why so many people are going nuts over the movie before it's even out. Possibly one of the hottest flicks this year, with the hugest budget tooo. Seems kinda interesting; I wanna watch it!

Ahh crap it's so late already..and I wanted to sleep nice and early so I won't oversleep in the morning. Yikes.

Okayy nights world!

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12:08 AM