Went to the clinic again when my temperature rose to 39deg..and while going there, it rose another 0.6deg. Mans...really frying my braincells can.

Ohh the doc had this really cool thermometer though. I used to think the kind where they place it in your ear to take a reading is pretty advanced, but this one was even more power. He just held this instrument in front of my forehead, and a series of beeps later, my temperature was displayed! So interesting.

Anyhows, I was 0.4deg short of the max limit, so heng, don't have to go hospital. Not considered high-risk either..so I guess there's this 50% chance that I'm actually down with H1N1. Or so the doctor says.

No prizes for guessing what he prescribed me..tamiflu is damn freaking expensive! One capsule costs 6 bucks..my mum and I almost jaw-dropped. Have to handle the capsule carefully when taking my medicine..imagine if I lost one or something. Cash flying away, literally. Goshh.

My head and nose feel like crap. I can't wait for tamiflu to work its wonders and clear everything in 24hours. Looks like I'm going to spend my weekend holed up at home..the doctor wanted to extend my mc too. I can just imagine my boss' reaction if I tell her I'm going to continue my mc leave next week.

See how on Sunday..don't really have the luxury to take anymore medical leave, what with work piling up. Already received so many calls/msn from office today regarding all the various projects I'm handling. Hard to even recover in peace..

painpainpainpainpain. =(

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9:21 PM

Tossed and turned the entire night, and woke up to a temperature of 38.7 deg. Goshh I can't even recall when was the last time I had such a high fever.

After two doses of painkillers, it's still hovering around 38deg..I am completely annoyed with the headache that plagues me non-stop. Even the ice-pack doesn't help. Arghhh.

Nose leaking like a tap too...why why why does clarinase not work for me? My boss practically swears by it. =x

Looks like it's another trip to the doc's later if the fever still doesn't subside..like I was telling rina over msn, the last thing I want to do now is to walk out of the house and into that brilliant sunshine. Haii.

And my dustbin has turned into a sea of white, all thanks to the near-200 pulls of tissues I've used since yesterday. Goodness. I must really reincarnate and be a tree next time.

It sucks to be sick. It sucks worse to be sick, and yet online to vet through work and send emails from home. Slave to my job. I'm already dreading the mountain of work that's gonna hit me the moment I go back on monday.

Really can't figure out why I've been falling sick so often since I started this job. I'm wondering if I've used up my 14 days of medical leave actually. At the rate I visit my doctor..I think I'm really becoming a regular customer of his. Don't know how many hundred buckeroos I've given to him and the countless MCs he has given me.

Can't decide to sweat off the fever or chill myself to bring down the temperature. Either doesn't sound good.

I just want to be able to have a good 2 hours of sleep without weird dreams and pounding headaches and a nose running like a tap. Why is that so bloody hard to achieve? =\

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2:11 PM

I was sooo right about my dayima dropping by for a visit this week!

Thought my whole day was going to be spent battling cramps and the viral infection, but after one dose of pink panadol this morning, surprisingly the cramps didn't torture me much. Wondering if it's too much to hope for something similar every month from now on. *crosses fingers*

Anyhows..looks like I won't be able to go back to work tomorrow as originally intended..the fever just doesn't go away, and neither does the headache. To top it all off, I now have a very bad nose. Sighh. Really the full works of the virus... =(

Being sick is so super no fun. I haven't ran at all this week! Ultra unfit liao, and I haven't bladed in like two months either. My blades are sitting in one corner of my room, blending into the furniture layout. >_<

My dear sp is going to kill me tomorrow morning when I tell her I'm not going to office..cos' she'll have to sit in the big meeting on my behalf and take notes. Whoops. This is the second time she's being dragged into projects with this client because I'm either on leave or on mc each time..haha. Must make it up to her somehow!

Like my boss puts it, she's developing a history with that organisation. And that will only breed experience, which leads to advancement. Not necessarily a bad thing, right? Lol.

Need to wakeup early to email clients tomorrow..siann. So much for being on mc. Spent today online just so that my colleagues and boss can reach me if necessary.

Looks like it's a very long weekend for me..albeit I can't really enjoy it. Probably gonna cancel my NUH appt on saturday since it's pointless for me to do the tests when I'm on so much medication.

Got a colouring job arranged for saturday! Let's hope I'll be well enough and don't have to cancel. A little bit hesitant though, cos' I'm kinda scared about the damage to my tresses. Already so little and so chemicalised...beauty really comes at a price. =x

Headache headache...waiting for my medicine to take effect and knock me out.

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10:21 PM

Woke up this morning with a cough that did nothing but get worse..and the verdict at the end of the day, as given by my doctor: MC the next two days. =\

Went to see the doc with the intention of getting something to ease the headache and cough, but it turns out that fever came into the picture as well. And when the doc tells you not to spread the virus around the office (indirectly asking me to be a responsible citizen since H1N1 is prevalent), you pretty much know he wants you to stay home till the germs are contained. Haha.

Still coughing my lungs out, but I'm guessing it's nothing more than a viral infection.

So many many people are sick! Bern and shan are also down with fever and flu..how ironic that we all have legitimate reasons to stay away from work, yet we can't meet to go out. Haha.

Damn alot of work waiting in office though..maybe having MC isn't such a brilliant idea after all. I doubt I'll stay home on Friday; got a major meeting with the MU** client. Sighh.

Such a boring day I had. With each day getting more mundane than the last. Whatever happened to my exciting life mans..even BB said that I no longer have a happening life after office hours. It's all spent doing OT. =x

This is such a siann post I wonder why I even bothered to type it out.

Maybe the weekend will be better!

Get well soon everyone!

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9:39 PM

Didn't expect to have dinner tonight, but I did! Timely text message just as I left office for home.

Decent enough meal with pretty good company; the sea breeze was really cold tonight!

But something feels different somehow..I don't know laa.

Played abit with a really adorable beagle named peanut! Seriously a hyperactive puppy with a really nice owner. I love how doggies can bring complete strangers together to exchange smiles and strike up a conversation. =)

I think I'm going to spend the next month or two OT-ing every single night. Sighh.

The boss wanted to take over one of my projects cos' I have too many on hand, but I declined. Sounds kinda stupid, but I think it's for the better, really. Probably only my colleagues will understand why, and even agree with my decision. Lol.

I really kinda regret my perm. It's damn bloody cuii la. Instead of making my hair more manageable and less frizzy, it seems to be adding on the mess. People say curls are legitimate mess, but this wasn't what I had in mind when I stepped into the salon on impuse. Ohwells.

Must stop blow-drying my hair. It's drying it out even more. =(

Have the urge to go and perm the really small and curly curls which will give my whole head a bombastic and wild look. Then go and dye and highlight some super happening colour. Lol. Maybe next timeeee. I can imagine people thinking that I've gone crazy. =p

Watched the latest episode of FMA; now I know what nick was talking about when he said that he doesn't understand the current ep. I was telling him, how hard can it be to understand? But I'm kinda lost too. Hahaha.

On a random note, the ex from quite awhile back dropped me a message which I didn't know how to reply to. Of all things, those were the last three words I expected to see. It's been, what, two years or longer?

I've forgotten how it feels like to really love, come to think of it. The last r/s not so long ago..I wonder how much of it actually constituted love. Maybe it was just those impulsive emotions at work.

I think a part of me gave up on the belief that "the greatest happiness in life is to love and be loved in return" when the second r/s ended. When you put your all into something and it just fails so completely, it isn't easy to maintain the same optimistic outlook. Suddenly, all previously-held beliefs seem idealistic and cynicism simply takes over.

I do still believe in fairytale endings; just look at mel and john. But I also acknowledge that not every girl is going to be lucky enough to meet her prince charming in this lifetime.

At least there's still me to be good to myself.

Learn to love youself, before you can be capable of loving others.

I need to love myself alot more.

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12:42 AM

Today was certainly a blue monday..headache the moment I woke up this morning, and all it did was to get progressively worse as the day wore on.

Got so bad by lunch time that I was practically comatose at my table while waiting for BB to buy panadol back. At least the painkiller helped a tiny bit..still had to drag myself for a meeting after.

Wonder if it's because I'm falling sick, or because my dayima is coming anyday now. =(

Anyhows, had a meeting in NIE; my first time back in ntu after a longgg time. That familiar feeling washed over me while we drove through jalan bahar and past my old halls..can tell that lots of halls have gotten a new coat of paint.

Really a good feeling to step back into familiar grounds which were home to me for 3 years. I miss my school life muchhlyy!

Stoned through the ultra-long meeting while trying my darn hardest not to fall asleep..panadol always has that sleepy effect on me for some strange reason. Think my boss could tell my mind was anywhere but at the meeting. Haha. But he was really nice about it..

Got stuck in a jam that lasted an hour while going back to office. They wanted to drop me home, but I had plenty of half-done work back in office. Sighh. At least I got to nap the entire time we were in the jam. That really helped the headache lots. The rain beating down outside the car made my nap pretty good tooo.

By the time we reached back..it was nearing 8pm. Almost everyone left already! Bestt...they even shutdown my computer. Haha. OT-ed till 9ish and finally back home. And my head is starting to hurt again. Baskett I swear.

Really feel damn stoned. Think I need to shower then go and sleep asap. This week probably will kena mc on one of the days..either that, or my weekend will be spent in agony. =x

And in the blink of an eye, I need to go back NUH again on sat..I hate it whenever I see that number appear on my phone display. Was damn tempted to ignore the call this morning but..there's no escaping it la. This time round it includes the blood test too..siann to the max. I hate needles and medical instruments and whatever that chills me to the bone. I don't like hospitals, period. They bring nothing but bad memories. Especially that hospital.

Okays time to hit the shower before I simply K.O. on the bed.

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10:00 PM

I never realised that toothpaste has the word "halal"!

Very random I know, but was just opening up a new tube of toothpaste as blogger was loading..and I saw that it's halal! There isn't the standard green label though. I really wonder what are the items (aside from food) that need to actually be certified halal. Haha.

Got back not long from shopping and dinner with the girlfriends. Celebrated zhen's birthday a few days early! Orchard Ion is damn huge I swear. Saw tons of shops I'd love to shop in! And the only shop I actually shopped at was watsons. -_- Hahaha.

Spent the entire god knows how long in there buying cosmetics for ourselves and zhen, our darling makeup noob. Picking out such stuffs are fun! Really a smart gift idea..bring her makeup shopping. Lol.

The salesgirl at the canmake counter was really niceee! I love jap brands. Haha. And I probably should get my cosmetics from the more daily-affordable kind of brands that are sold everywhere, instead of always heading for MAC or bobbie brown and whatnot. I love their stuffs, but it's just too ridiculous a price tag to always dig my wallet out for.

Unless, of course, I suddenly get a pay raise. HAHA.

Nursing a headache sucks. It's been pounding since somewhere during dinner, which was a good four hours ago. Siannn.

Anyhows, watami at Ion is not bad! Beanie's recommendation is pretty good..save for the fact that the queue was almost an hour long. Haha.

And I finally watched transformers! Now I know why so many pple love it. It's a damn good show! Super shioks watching all the action and effects and whatnot. =D

Joanie's gone back to londonland! =( Can't wait for her to be back in another month or so..hang on babe! The day's coming soon!

Wokays really need to take a nice, hot shower and off to bed I go. Monday blues gonna hit in a couple more hours, and I have a meeting with the boss first thing in the morning..sad sad sad.

Ohh! Me loves the personalised photo calendar and super touching letter from zhen! She's such a sweetie..making something for me since I did the trip collage for her and the rest..thanks darling! Shall put it in office to make everyday seem better. =)

Tataaaa!

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11:28 PM

Met the 29ners for dinner! Yet another one of those joan-is-flying-back-to-uk meetups. Haha.

But the happy thing is, she'll be back for gooood in another month or so! =D

And we finally met kimchiii! Joan can go back to UK a happy girl. =p

Left office late as usual; I never understand why the bosses always want to conduct those impromptu meetings right on the dot at knock-off time. Sighh. Anyways, Jeannie was cabbing from home so she picked me from the mrt station!

On hindsight, I should have just saved the money and taken an 11-minute train ride down to cityhall. I would have totally reached before her cab did. And paid ALOT less. =x

Anyways, there was this erp gantry near plaza sing, and it was still in operation. Just nice, we stopped at a red light before the gantry, with two cars in front of us.

Then the cab uncle said, "One more minute." (note the fullstop)

No wonder there were cars and taxis with their hazard lights turned on, stationed right before the white light shining down from the gantry.

Jeannie and I started going, ohmygod! One more minute! Ahhhh! I hope the traffic light doesn't turn green!!! (something along those lines laa.)

So we kept bio-ing the traffic light and praying for the minute to faster faster tick past, and..

The white light went off!

Jeannie and I: *Whooping/cheering/high-fiving/laughing*

I think the cab uncle thought we were mad. Hahaha. He very calmly said something like, "One minute already." He could have been more excited can. Lol.

It was so hilarious. I swear I love these damn bimbotic moments with the girls. HAHA. What can I say, I'm really a bimbo at heart even if I don't look like one. =p

Anyhows, we queued super freaking long for dinner at din tai fung laa...and saw pierre png and andrea de cruz! He's one good example of an artiste who looks the same both on-screen and off. There was this really cute boy with him! In matching tshirts somemore..too bad not his son. He looks like he adores kids.

Chilled at MOF after with the girls..traded stories about anything and everything. I miss them so! Ended up not meeting bern and the rest since I figured it's more nan de that joan is back in sg..I can meet the others anytime, really. Haha. And she said she would box me if I left early. =p

I want to faster get my shiro! Then can bring jeannie's bubbles, joan's gerald's chester and my shiro out for a doggies outing!

I talk as though shiro exists already. Looks like I'm going to find a puppy that matches the name, instead of the other way round. Lol.

Working tomorrow, sian to the maxxx! I hate it when clients ONE particular client asks me oh-so-casually, "You're working tomorrow, right?"

Baskettt. In office, we can't even keep track of which saturdays we work sometimes, and my client actually remembers each and every working saturday so that she can make me rush out things for her. When she's the one who sends them late ALL the time. Puiii.

Ohh!! Liza's given birth! Yet another SP baby..hahaha. So exciting! Me can't wait to see both mummy and baby..her baby really can't wait sia. Today was supposed to be her last day at work before maternity leave, and we actually catered for a buffet farewell lunch.

The funniest part was, when someone announced in office about the happy news this morning, the first question was, "Oh no then what about the buffet??"

HAHA.

I swear I have funny colleagues. =p

Okays my post has been really random. Jumping from topic to topic in no proper order.

Kaoz damn late liao, still got work tomorrow...bedtime!!

Goodnights world!

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1:28 AM

Went running with the sister! Finally left office before 8pm today. Yippeeee.

I swear I'm getting freaking unfit! =x

And the stupid mega-huge bruise on my knee actually hinders my running and push-ups. Siannn.

Everytime I jog with her, we just yak all the way, no matter the distance. Funny how I don't find it as tiring. Lol.

And she's always damn full of nonsense and hilarious stories!

sister: "everything in this world is like explained by math or bio or chem or physics can."
me: "whatever happened to common sense?"
sister: "it's a subset."

Dots! But come to think of it, doesn't "subset" fall under math. Hahaha.

And then there was this other one where we were talking (while running) about these two guys she knows, who happen to be twins.

sister: "when you first know them, they're like perfect! Althletic and sporty, good-looking, very musically-inclined, blah blah."
me: "whoaa damn good catch la! Somemore twins!"
sister: "but emotion-wise..they're no different from that leaf lying there."
me: ".................."

Isn't she damn nonsense! But I love talking to her. Or rather, hearing her talk. Especially coupled with the super hilarious facial expressions and change in tonality and exaggerated gestures. Hahaha. I'm glad someone in the family got the funny genes. =D

She was regaling me with stories about her teacher's days in uni as well..it's damn funny can! I almost died laughing. Haha!

Bonding with the sister is really niceee. =))

Visiting a fair tomorrow where all the corporate gifts companies will gather and sell us their product ideas and load us with samples! I am damn cheapo, but I can't wait to get my hands on all the stationary samples! I'm running out of nice pens and pencils and POST-IT PADS. I swear they disappear like nobody's business in office. And it's a good couple of hours away from work! Wheeee! Plus, not open to the public. How's that for exclusive. Muahahaha. =p

Okays I'm still ultra full from after-run dinner (bad habit, yes I know)..but I'm too sticky to not take a shower.

Tata!

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11:06 PM

A perfect moment. That should never have happened.

Disappointment, tinged with relief.

Understanding; a facade of acceptance.

Sometimes I wish I didn't understand so easily. But when certain things are put across in such a manner..all pretences fall flat.

Maybe it's for the better.

A short-lived bliss that I should regret..but I don't.

And now, a thing of the past.

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3:51 AM

One word to sum up my entire day: headache.

Literally, and metaphorically.

Head's been hurting all day since morning, and the panadols I took did nothing to help. At all. Whatever happened to the promise of "painkiller"?

Every light seemed extra bright today, my eyes ultra senstitive, and I was feeling floaty towards the end of the day..not exactly the best feeling when you're supposed to be focused on brainstorming and trudging through a mountain of work. Sighh.

The work pileup is so ridiculous, I think I'll need like a year to clear them all. But unfortunately, my projects all have to close in another 2 months or so. Madness can!

OT-ed till 10ish..after a super late dinner and shower, the head's still not any better.

Whyyyy!!! =x

Supposed to do more work at home, but the braincells have gone someplace faraway and seemingly have no intention of coming back for the night.

Kaleidoscope. Songbirds. Unity. Vibrance. Dynamism. Freeplay.

Words I've come to dread in the context of work.

So damn exhausted..but the hair isn't dry yet. Or rather, unruly curls.

Can't take anymore for the night. Tomorrow, I'll face the hell I'm throwing behind me now.

Tomorrow.

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12:35 AM

Gave in to a sudden urge to get my cuiii-ed tresses permed, but I don't like the current look! =x

Can't wait for the curls to loosen..as nick puts it, they're too "uptight" now. Hahaha. Really not nicee la..somemore my hair end up looking so darn short because of the curls. Not the long, long pretty tresses I was hoping for. =(

Curls in black are sucky tooo. Going for a dye job soon, hopefully this week! It's like back to the rebonding days, except this time, it's curly wurls.

Assuming the curls do get better over the next few days and start looking the way my stylist said it would..I should be fairly happy. Wheee.

But for now..gotta tahan the nonsensical mess on my head. Lol.

Caught xtina's musical and thought it was pretty good! She totally fit her role to a "T"; I swear that girl's made for drama-mama acting. Hahaha.

Really great to see the 29ners once more! Catching up with shan dearest over lunch was fantastic too..so happy for you darling! =))

And next weekend is melfy's wedding..it's almost hard to believe that one of us will officially become somebody's wife so soon! Seems as though it was only yesterday when we'd have breakfast in the canteen, play bejeweled on our handphones, laugh over nonsensical stuffs and copy tutorials from one another..gushing over mr quek and complaining about mr d..those fun-filled tj days. But nevertheless...happy for mel and john! Bet it'll be a gorgeous wedding. =)

Suddenly miss my straight hair. Not that it was really straight but..even that cui-ness seemed easier to accept than this mop of too-curly curls.

Okok cannot regret..already blew mega bucks being hiao and going to blow more moolah dyeing my hair soon. Sunk cost! Lol.

Pretty tiredd, maybe I'll have an early night after all..

Wish I knew what you're thinking.

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11:39 PM

Goshh I really haven't blogged in a gazillion years! Sooo muchh to update about! But too lazy to spell out the specifics. Haha.

Camboviet trip was really great! An eye-opener for me in more ways than one, no matter the fact that this was my second time back in cambodia. Seems like each time I step on the soil of another land, the culture kind of infuses into me and I just soak in the way of life there.

Granted, still as a tourist..but I'd like to think that the things I learn from each trip enrich my own life.

Miss the simple life over there in the rural areas..and I've missed the bblc kids so much! Seeing them in the flesh, laughing together, playing games, excitedly exchanging stories about our lives..have missed them so. =)

Travelling with the other five four sreys and huizhen has been a fantastic experience! Haha. Their antics really never failed to crack me up..so full of nonsense! I miss us as a team of six tooo. Five samurai apes and one watermelon-eating ape. =D

I think this trip has gotta be the only one thus far where I had so many weird things happening to me. Hahaha. The moment I landed in siem reap airport, once I stepped onto the tarmac...my havaianas broke. Super sad!! And that was my only footwear. Ended up barefoot in the airport, and attracting alot of unnecessary stares. Thank goodness for huizhen's slippers. Lol. Really "stepped" right into the culture upon arrival. =p

I think the most unforgettable has gotta be the allergy attack though. Haha. Still can't be sure what caused it, though I'm fairly certain it was the chicken blood. But that was quite a nerve-wrecking experience..first time in my life suffering from an allergy reaction. Hopefully it'll be the first and last timee.

And ohh! Tried cicada and spider, and the latter is really yummy! Sometimes I wonder where I get the guts to eat all these nonsense from. Haha. Just seeing a cockroach can make me sprint like an olympic runner; yet I actually spend money ingesting arachnids and whatnot. Anyhows..no harm done! Cambodians eat it like a snack. Lol. We only live once, might as well try all kinds of things while I'm still young, right? =p

I still prefer cambodia to vietnam though..shopping in ho chi minh left abit of a bad taste. Can't say that I very much like all the people there, though there are nice ones. But overall, still enjoyable!

And I think we've all become jaywalking experts from travelling to these two countries. I swear the zebra crossings are simply areas along the roads to jaywalk. No one actually stops to let you cross. Lol.

Coming back to sg was kinda sad..leaving behind the unblemished beauty of a country not fully modernised and stepping back into the hustle and bustle of city life here is always hard for me. Last year it was like that; this time, no different.

The kind of beauty found there really transcends what we have here in the place we call home. Sometimes, I wish we could all just take a step back, enter a time warp and content ourselves with a lifestyle that's back-to-basics.

Can't wait to eventually backpack SEA. =) And to think I was the one who said, once upon a time, that I wouldn't travel to southeast asian countries. Really eat my own words. Haha.

Had a company photoshoot about a week ago! Really quite a big affair..what with a makeup artist and official photographer and all. All that was lacking in office was a proper studio. Haha.

Photoshoots can be pretty fun! And tiring..now I know how it feels like to be a model under the glare of the hothothot lights, smiling till my jaws ache and having to move one degree to the left just to get the exact position that the creative director wants. And then, to stay in that position for the next fifteen minutes without moving, or risk re-doing the whole thing again.

Not easy!!!

Can't wait to see the photos! Taken a la vogue style. Haha. With the boss at the helm, the photos can't turn out that badd. =p

Was supposed to go ecp after work but ended up at home..wanna go to the night festival later, but now BB can't make it. Sighh. Looks like I'm resigned to spending my saturday rotting away at home again. And to think I just capped a long week of work! =x

Haven't bladed in over a month and I'm itching to get onto my eight wheels! Yet at the same time, I keep worrying that I've forgotten how to blade. Hahaha.

Super tempted to curl my hair since the photoshoot; was given curls that day (not very well-done, in my opinion) and I pretty much like the look of it. The rest were telling me to go for curls too..but..dunno lehh. It's like a vicious cycle where once I start, I can't stop. Like rebonding..see how first! Maybe one day I'll be so stressed that I might just chiong into a salon and tell them to do whatever they want to my hair. Haha.

Okays that was nonsensical babbling. Quite siann now, wondering what to do later..done with my anime already. I like FMA! =D

See if mb is awake and planning to go for the night festival. =p

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