I don't know why I keep thinking today's a friday. Maybe cos' tomorrow's a PH, meaning no work!! Yippeee!

Not that I hate work. Haha. But I'm totally unused to the office being so quiet, and it's a really sucky feeling to be helpless without my designers around. I can't do muchh without them! At least glenn will be back on thu. Wheeee.

And and and!! Payday today! Woohooo~! Not much but it feels good receiving money all the same. What more, my first official paycheck! =)

But the real happiness comes from hearing your boss tell you to "keep up the good work".

shi kai xin de lor! =p

Went shopping with mummy and the sister after work; bought loads of things! And I got this really cute japan-made dish! Others will probably use it for meal times, but I'm going to put my own things inside! I realised all my hair accessories fit pretty nicely into it. Even the hairbands. =D

And it's so darn cute! A green shallow dish with wacky looking monkeys hanging around, plus yellow bananas and four leaf clovers! Kawaii-ne!

Yesterday I ate the hugest xiao DA long bao I've ever seen in my entire life! And it comes with a straw placed in the centre! For you to drink up the soup inside. Yummilicious to the max can! Somemore with crab roe inside. *slurps*

Been eating alot of good food lately! Felt so deprived for the past month when I was down with one virus after the other; feels really good to be able to indulge in all the junk and crap once more! Though I must really watch it I think. Haha.

What a rainy, rainy day..it always rains during hari raya! No idea why. Haha. It just does. Chionging tuitions tomorrow so hopefully my weekend will be more slack..seeing as how saturday's a work day. I want to havoc my saturday night away!

Please give me good weather tomorrow..I don't like to drive during rainy weather! The drive home from parkway took sooo long, it felt like eons! I could hardly see anything, and my sideview mirrors were utterly, completely useless. I think I was driving based on instinct, really. Not that I could see clearly what other drivers were doing. I doubt anyone really could, to be honest. The rain was beyond pouring!

Okays am gonna make the most of tonight and tomorrow before working my ass off the next 3 days.

Happiness is when you love and feel loved! =)

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11:20 PM

And the weekend has flown me by yet again! Spent almost my entire saturday having tuition, before mugging jap at the airport till late. Then today's a busy busy sunday!

Before leaving home this afternoon, I was kind of resentful at having to give up my only free day to helping out at a CFG that's not mine. Okay la, that's not a very nice gesture, but I really wanted to just do something relaxing today.

In the end, it was all but relaxing. However, I have no complaints! Ended up having tons of fun tooo. =)

Mummy volunteered me for her CFG, and I ended up being roped in to look after a bunch of kids from a charity, together with mabel. They're a really cute bunch! Though pretty noisy and monkey-like. Hahaha. Totally not easy trying to entertain them and keep them from disturbing everyone else in the audience la.

Haven't had to run up and down so much for awhile now..as we were waving goodbye to them on the bus, mabel was telling me that scene was really reminiscent of our days in cambodia.

I totally agree!

I kinda miss them actually..especially that family of siblings I ended up spending alot of time with. Ultra mischievous kids but so very cute! And so sweet! They even got my number from me. I hope they call me! Haha.

Mel says I can be a kindergarten teacher already. Where got so easy! A few kids here and there I still can handle. Throw me one class of monkeys, I think I'll either throw them out of class or myself out of the building. Lol.

And the CFG was really good! Fantastic turnout; a far cry from mummy's worry that response would be bad. Damn kua zhang la! Had to even place rows of chairs outside the auditorium itself. Full house to the max! The performances were great too..very dynamic and enjoyable! Though I was distracted half the time by the pair of monkeys next to me. =p I think every CFG should be like this..I hope if my chapter has it next year again, it can be as successful too! Mine totally pales in comparison to the last 2 I've been to la..I think organising committee abit not quite up to mark. I feel like volunteering for the next one if possible. HAHA.

Can't believe that line came from me. When not so long ago, I was quite against all things soka. I think it's the annoying perfectionist in me waking up again. Especially when I know that it can be much better than what I've seen.

Shucks I'm hungry again! Dinner was just a tiny plate before I had to chiong to send the kids off..plus I had no lunch..I need a supper kaki mans. =(

Buddy when will you be free to meet me!! I have tons and tons of things to tell you! Until I don't know where to start. Haha. Miss you miss you!

And bestie, jiayou for your assignments! Good luck with words reduction ya. Tkkaire alrights!

I need to find food!

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8:45 PM

I love fridays!! Especially when the next day is a non-working saturday. =)))

Work as usual was good; loving it more and more! And it was a pleasant surprise to get to meet lamu for lunch. Haha. I miss toapayoh kuey chap! Next week okays darlings! Wheeeee~

My jkt office has the whole of next week as holiday la..how am I going to survive with my designers gone?! I foresee next week's gonna be a hectic week at work..but yays, wednesday's a PH! =D

Met bestie and his gang for chillout at timbre after work; walked past the F1 circuit and it was crazy-noisy to the max! First time I actually see and hear race cars zooming past in a flash. Freaking loud la! Don't really understand the hype over it although I love cars and I love races. Maybe it's just a little too far away from my comfort zone here in the little red dot. Where things like F1 and few hundred buckeroos tickets belong to the TV and media. For me, at any rate. Good enough that I can watch it live on TV. Seeing lamborghinis and exotic sports cars on the roads get me excited though. And I wanna go marina mandarin to see the pagani zonda in elvis pink cadillac and wiesmann MF4 GT!! Who wanna go with me. Hahaha.

Timbre's not bad! Though their service staff is abit...ahem. Let's just say there's room for improvement ya. The food's pretty decent, though their drinks aren't really fantastic. Okay, to be fair, we only tried the mocktails. Maybe their alcoholic range is muchh better, I don't know. But I'm not a drinker by nature. Haha.

The band's quite alright too, though I found myself bopping along more to their CD tracks. Lol. And there were some pretty highh pple dancing along to the live band! Coool. If I'm with a group as crazy siao-on, I'd definitely be up there on the dancefloor too! Haha!

Cabbed home with jingxin, and just our luck to get an overly enthusiastic and rather talkative driver. Who was making rather unnecessary references too. Kept butting in even when I was talking to her; could tell she didn't quite wanna humour him. Neither did I. So we just answered abit, "ummm" and "hmmm" the whole journey. Speaking to each other in chinese did kind of shut him up though. Seeing as how he didn't understand the language. Hahaha. Thank goodness!

I should make most fridays my chillout night! At the very least, every alternate friday where I don't have to work the next day. Love the feeling of relaxing after an entire week! And I find that my days pass really quickly can! Before I even know it, it's the weekend again! I think that's good. =)

Listening to a french affair cd now and I just heard a familiar tune! Seem to have played it in ntusb before. I miss band days! Ah wells. It sounds like the stella artois ad music. Forgot what it's called. Haha.

I think I'm someone with 2 extreme sides man. Lol. I can be damn chor lor and unglam and ah lian and bimbotic all at once, while being classy and cultured and refined on the other. Just never, ever, demure. *shudders* Hahaha. I still remember that one of the first few words buddy used to describe me when he first knew me, was that I was damn san ba and gossipy and dunno what la! Something he (and manyyyy others) couldn't tell from looking at me. Ultra funny! But it's trueee..over the years, I've had so many people saying how I'm an oxymoron, an angel yet a devil, unglam yet possess etiquette, and a whole load of other contradictions. I used to hate being called a bimbotic ah lian. But hey, that's what makes me unique! I'm really learning to love me alot, alot more now. And embracing every trait I possess, ah lian and all. =)

And I have a whole range of activities and things which i term geriloves! Those that brighten up my day, put a smile on my face, relax me after a long day and just make me feel HAPPY! =D

I think I'm really being zi high nowadays. Wahaha. I wanna go shopping! And I still wanna see that zonda and wiesmann. Bahhh. Maybe I'll make my own way down to town to catch a glimpse tmr!

Okays I wanna orh orh liao. So late goshh.

Oyasuminasai!

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1:17 AM

Finally rid of the pesky headache that's plagued me for three four days straight! And that's all because I took painkillers. Haii. Thought I could go without but apparently not..and the effect was practically instantaneous! Astounding.

Almost got driven nuts by one of my clients today. Really gives a whole new meaning to the words "disorganised" and "messy" and every other synonym. ARGHH. But I think I'm pretty lucky already. I could be in a job I hated but hey, I love what I'm doing! And everyday I learn new things, take charge of new projects, get to admire still more pretty advertising collaterals..and I'm going to learn how to use design software really soon!

Happiness, or what? =)

I just suddenly recalled a bet I lost over greentea macflurry. So dumb right. Of all things, macflurry!! Somehow that word looks wrong. Is it macflurry or mcflurry. Then again, they both look wrong. I hate it when I can't get the spelling right! Hahaha.

And I'm back to the cycle of not wanting to answer calls or taking millions of years to reply a message from someone. I don't likeeee! Please stop making me do this. =( I don't want to lose a friend just cos' I'm annoyed by his behaviour. Arghhh.

Aiyah I wanted to blog about something but I forgot what. Jialat! Goldfish memory haha.

Okays shall go and sleep soon. Headache stay away from me!

And, TGIF (in a few hours)! =)

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11:30 PM

I've learnt that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is to be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I've learnt that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.
I've learnt that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learnt that it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.
I've learnt that you can do something in an instant that will give you a heartache for life.
I've learnt that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always 2 sides.
I've learnt that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I've learnt that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I've learnt that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I've learnt that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learnt that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
I've learnt that no matter how good a friend someone is, they're going to hurt you every once in awhile and you must forgive them for that.
I've learnt that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learnt that just because 2 people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
I've learnt that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I've learnt that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I've learnt that no matter how many friends you have, if you are their pillar, you will feel lonely and lost at the times you need them most.
I've learnt that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.
I've learnt that although the word "love" can have many different meanings, it loses value when overly used.
I've learnt that love is not for me to keep, but to pass on to the next person I see.
I've learnt that there are people who love you dearly but just don't know how to show it.
I've learnt that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.
I've learnt that everyday you should reach out and touch someone. People love that human touch- holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.

I've learnt that I still have alot to learn.

If you can read until here, I salute you. Seeing as how my font size is so small and hard to read against my blog background. Found this typewritten piece among my possessions when I was packing them, and some learning points really hit home. So very true..every single one of them. I think I can safely say that I've learnt almost all the above; it's just whether or not I apply them to daily life.

That was quite a mouthful. Anyways, feeling better now that the throat's less sore. And while my headache hasn't quite left me, I'm not complaining cos' the fever's finally gone! Yayness. No more scares of possible dengue fever and malaria and whatnot. Bleahh.

Utterly swamped with work and drowning in emails the moment I turned on my outlook. It's scary what one day of mc can do to the ever-growing pile of work! At least I managed to clear almost everything. Happiness! =)

And I hate the china food scare la. So many things I used to (and still do) consume have been taken off the shelves! Damn. Why can't they be more reliable for once and stop announcing freaky news about their manufactured products once every now and then. Arghhh.

I'm tired but not the sleepy kind of tired. I think it's because of the tmd virus. Haha. Damn ass! I can't believe I've gotten myself so sick in the past few weeks and denied myself so many types of enjoyment in life, a.k.a food. And I've been overly pampered, really. Though what I really miss is the subtle kind of care and concern I used to get from daddy. Ohwells.

Alrights need to go take med..the huge-ass pills again. Yucks.

Miss you miss you! *huggs

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10:23 PM

Got woken up by a call from my client this morning, and she was so nice when I told her I'm on mc today. Amazing how a simple "take care" can totally make my morning. =)

Fever hasn't subsided, though the headache's better as compared to yesterday. And I can swallow my food better now! Yippeee. The doctor's mad la, he prescribed huge-ass pills for me, each bigger than the last. I almost choked to death trying to swallow them can! Could hardly swallow water and he expected me to swallow his giant-sized pills. Goodness!

My boss is so cute, she told me to "drink more liang teh!!" I'd rather drink liang teh over medicine, any day!

Couldn't really sleep last night; woke up no fewer than 5 or 6 times, and counting down till the sunrise. Haha. It's so strange, considering my medicine is kind of drowsy. Maybe it's because I was sleeping on my sister's bed. My mummy refused to let me sleep on the floor! I fare better on my mattress though. So poor cheryl ended up on the floor, even though her exams start today.

She'd better clear her promos!! Or I'll be one pissed off da jiejie. Haha.

Don't know what to do the rest of today..all my materials are in office, and I can't email my clients without them. Really feels strange to be so free! Maybe I'll catch some forty winks in the afternoon later.

Tuition later tonight! Hope my throat doesn't fail me. Or it'd really be a one-sided conversation haha.

Thanks darling! Don't ask me why; I just feel like saying it. Haha. If anything, thankyouu for your concern! =)

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11:26 AM

Had so much I wanted to blog about, but not in the right state to do so now. Can't remember half of what I wanted to gush about either.

It sucks to be sick. Arghh. Haven't even fully recovered from the flu virus from 2 weeks ago, and now I'm down with a viral fever and throat infection.

That makes 2 days of MC in less than a month of starting my new job. Omgoshh to the max.

Thank goodness the medicine has made me more sane. I haven't felt sooo sick in a long while.

On a happier note, got my new specs made and am pleased with them..though they're still far from making me go "Wow! I just gotta get that pair!"

And it's two pairs I've gotten this time, not just one.

I just love red specs, don't you? Similar to my previous pair, but brighter this time. Yay.

The throat's killing. At least the construction going on im my head has died down somewhat.

It's gonna be an early night and sadly, mc tmr. Shall just sleep my fill.

Miss my buddy and my bestie. =(

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10:30 PM

Wanted to finally make a new pair of specs, but ended up with a new top and new capris, and still no specs.

Mine are really cui to the max already la..I can't believe I survived so long with it! The last straw came when it fell apart again last night and I had to hunt for scotch tape and whatnot to repair it. Now it boasts a nice bright orange ribbon used to secure the 2 parts together.

Omgoshh. I really am the best. Hahaha.

Saw nothing nice in all the optical shops earlier..and the first pair I picked up to try cost a freaking sevenhundredandeightybuckeroos. Don't even remember what fantastic brand was that! Goodness! Add on the cost of my lenses, I'd probably end up paying close to a thousand for glasses.

Crazy la! And it wasn't even that nicee.

Still quite like the pair bern and I saw at jurong point that time. But it's so darn far away! Now that I'm working, I so do not want to travel there just to make a pair of glasses.

Shucks I just realised that the clothes I bought just now aren't for office wear. Damn. Haha. Not that I mind, but what I really happen to need is more clothes for wearing to work..

Yays weekend is coming! Although I gotta work on sat. And I have 3 tuitions to give. Haii. Nvm, at least it's still the weekend. =) And I'm meeting my ij darlings on sat again! Yippeee!

Bestie's cfg tmr night..let's see how good it is. Haha. I think mine wasn't too bad! Just the turnout not fantastic. Cfg's pretty fun after all..I hope they'll have another next year! =)

And it's so funny to see guys agonising over what to wear. Hahaha. But well..I guess that's better than guys who completely heck care about appearance and grooming etc. One day we shall go shopping okays! Then I'll make sure you learn everything most things about what you look good in, and how to match your clothes. Lol.

Okays friday tomorrow..hope it'll be another fruitful day at work! I love each morning I wake up to. =)

Happiness!

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11:42 PM

Today was a damn happening day!!

Swamped with work the moment I reached office, until lunchtime. And that was a super fun affair! With bb and the boss, at a thai restaurant. Wheee. We had so much fun talking about all kinds of stuffs, from work to cupcakes to weddings and whatnot. Throw 2 girls or more together, and you usually end up with very interesting conversation topics, plus loads of laughter. =D

Rushed off for a project tender briefing after lunch, and silly me left my namecard case in the other bag! Luckily bb reminded me before I left office, so I ended up bringing a few of her namecards along. Lol. I am such a scatterbrain!

And I did another very silly thing on my way back. Cabbed there and back cos' can claim from company, and while I happily remembered to ask for receipt while going there, I forgot to get receipt when I cabbed back to office! Shucks man! I only remembered right after the cab drove off, and I actually ran after it for a few metres! Needless to say, I failed in my attempt. =(

Must have been the heels!!

And ohh! We celebrated DC's belated bday with an ultra yummilicious chocolate cake! Don't know where the bosses bought it from. Haha. It was so funny la, the entire process. He looks younger than the number of candles on his cake!

Today was a day of smiles indeed. Loves! =)

Though my job doesn't pay fantastically, I work long hours, and there are no benefits whatsoever, I still love it! Happiness is when you count every little blessing in your life, no matter how big or small. And true happiness is when you're grateful for everything that happens to you, so even the bad seem to turn into something good.

Giving thanks for each day really makes me happy! =)

And I think it's so darn amazing that I'm hardly ever tired after work la. I have so many friends who are dead shagged upon reaching home, they don't go out often after work, and sleep really early. People I used to see online till late are seldom even online anymore. For me, I feel super free! Haha. And after showering, that's when I'm ultra refreshed and good to go! But usually don't go anywhere. Lol.

It's nice to have things to look forward to after work, even if I enjoy my job. Cos' after a long day at work, all you wanna do is find some way to unwind, and in my case, not necessarily resting at home. I like to go out still! The night is young lehh. Haha.

But I suspect I'm going to feel more pressed for time when we shift office. That's the only part about work I don't like. =( It's going to be so faaaaaaar!

Haiya my cough is still not getting better. Cough till my throat raw already. Bleahh. Quick quick recover..I wanna sing ktv! And I miss my chocolate fixes and coffee-craving moments and and...alot more! Shoo virus shoo!

And I wanna go running tooo...freaking long nvr run; I miss my de-stressing activity and feeling the wind against my face. Damn unfit! Heng for the walk to office and back to the mrt everyday.

Yays lings is coming back soon! Happiness! =)

And I suddenly remembered something! It actually took me a mere 10minutes to get home from the airport yesterday! Amazing right! Obviously only bestie is capable of such a feat. Hahaha. Let's aim for 9minutes next time! =p

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10:15 PM

And so this morning marked the first tuition lesson with my new student; lobang introduced by lishan. Let's just say it was like nothing I expected.

Arranged to meet at tpy cos' it was convenient for both of us, i.e. it was with his approval and consent that we chose to have lesson outside. And I distinctly spelt it out very clearly to the dear boy that I tutor my other kids at places like macs, mos, subway etc, by their choice. His reply was that he preferred to be tutored outside and not at home.

Sounds okay right? Yeah, I thought so too. Seeing as how my other 2 kids are angels and don't give me any problems.

But this one totally off the mark! Appeared with his father, of all people, who appeared rather enthusiastic at first about meeting his son's new tutor, but underlying that was actually a chance to reprimand. Omgoshh.

Like, hello? Is it my fault that your son chose to be tutored outside? It's not as though I didn't tell him where I usually hold my lessons. He was freaking agreeable can! And the dear boy just stood silently at one side while his father rebuked nicely scolded talked to the bemused yet irate tutor (a.k.a me).

Then the next best part was, he asked me how much was the tuition fee and proceeded to take the cash out in full view of everyone else. Mind you, there was this huge crowd of people around us cos' of some ongoing exhibition. This has to be the first time I'm paid on the first lesson. Usually, it's either end of month or late payment.

I was, like, "You should pay me at the end of 4 lessons you know. We haven't even started the first." And he proceeded to tell me about trust in the tutor all that crap, and there I was thinking, wow, does he really go around trusting a few hundred bucks with people he meet for the first time? For all you know, I could just run away after the first lesson (not that I would la).

And guess what? Nooo...of course not, how can I fully trust you although I say so? I was damn amused when he pulled out this piece of folded paper, began to unfold it and took out a nice silver pen.

"Then you can sign here."

Huh?

Ahh..it's an acknowledgement of the tuition fee received. Complete with requirements of my name, IC number and signature. Totally pull stunt can! And I forgot to add, printed in full colour too. He should donate his printer ink to me, seriously. I can think of better ways to use it.

In total, we spent 20 minutes of precious tuition time discussing about why I picked such a lousy venue for lesson, how he trusts me enough to pay me on the 1st lesson, followed by signing of the acknowledgement, yet more ramblings about his son's english and whatnot. The boy looked decidedly uninterested. I wonder if it's because he's been through it too many times.

And to top it all off, he didn't bring any materials for tuition. Okay that was probably my fault, I concede. I should have texted him last night instead of this morning. And I should stop assuming that every student is as eager and takes initiative the way HP and YW do.

And so, off we went to buy him an assessment book. First and last time, really. In the past, any additional books my teacher bought were paid by my parents.

Ohmygoodnessgracious. I actually typed soooo much about one encounter today. But it has me all warmed up and ready to type more. Hahaha. Not that I have much else to grouse about. The boy's fine la, albeit a little buay zi dong. And signing the acknowledgement is pretty fair too. I mean, they're nice enough to pay me on the first lesson. It's just the way the father launched onto me like a rapid missile, totally blaming me for not picking a conducive environment for lesson, which has me ultra irked. Please lor, I offered to go to your house! Get your facts right before not letting me get a word in edge-wise.

Irritating to the max!

I sincerely hope that I will never see the father appearing at tuition again. Waste my time only! I ended up finishing half an hour later than was agreed. >_<

Ohh anyways! Finally done with my application! I completely forgot about it, what with starting work and all. Deadline's tomorrow and my dear mummy has very kindly offered to send it down for me personally, so that I can submit it on time. Thanks mummy! So sweet of her. I was thinking if I should have it couriered.

Pretty much wrote rubbish in the essay, but heck la. Last minute work can't produce very much la huh. Let's just hope it's enough for me to clear the first round! *crosses fingers*

Okays it's time for dinner! And I thought I would be out now mugging my jap. No idea what happened haha!

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5:47 PM

It feels so strange to be sitting at home on a Friday afternoon, instead of facing my monitor in the office. Not that there's a very big difference; since last night after seeing the doc, I've been replying work-related emails and dumping a load of design corrections on my designer. Oops.

As nick puts it, the workaholic in me is surfacing. Ohh dear.

I feel very antsy taking mc leave into my 2nd week of work. Or maybe I'm thinking too much. It totally doesn't help that the rest of my crazy workaholic colleagues can work through their illnesses! Omgoshh. I feel damn lousy. >_<

Okok I gotta stop being paranoid that my boss is going to fire me for taking medical leave.

That sentence reads so funny that I can't help but laugh at what I typed. It's like such a ridiculous worry! But work really isn't like school at all..not as innocent an environment, and mistakes made at work aren't condoned as well as they were back in school. No wonder nick used to tell us that it was alright to make mistakes during our term in exco..just don't make those mistakes in the workplace in future.

So very true.

Learning about colour swatches and pantone charts and whatnot are pretty fun! I love looking through all the colours..it's like a million rainbows put together! There's so much to remember though..I think my constant worry is that I'll screw up in my work. =( As it is, I have to keep asking my senior about this that and everything..heng she's so nice. And she's damn power! Can tell the grammage of a paper and ramble off some exotic paper name just by fingering it. Soon that will be me too!

I love my job, really. Even though the clients are a messy bunch. Hahaha.

Ohmans my blog entries have been increasingly work-related. I don't know if this is good or bad. Although I haven't lost track of my eventual dream, it seems that the path I'm taking now is leading me further and further away from it. Yet, this path brings forth new and exciting things to learn about too..ohwells.

I was wondering about something bestie said, that he doesn't like it when girls treat him too nicely. I couldn't grasp that thought at first, cos' from a girl's perspective, it seems to me that most girls like it when guys treat them well. But suddenly, it totally hit upon me what he really means! Haha.

I've been guilty of that too, more than once. Of being on the receiving end from guys who treat me so well, it gives me the shivers, whether they mean it genuinely, or are just putting on an act. Now that I recall those incidents, yeah, I fully agree! Lol. It's only if the feeling is mutual, then does it seem right.

Caught in yet another of these situations, and I'm starting to feel like running in the opposite direction. Sian la. It's become so naturally unnatural, that I don't know what the heck is he trying to do.

Can't we just hit the "rewind" button?

If this happened a year ago, I might not feel this way. Things change, people change, situations change. How true that even if the right person comes along, if the timing is wrong, it just doesn't work out. Experiencing this more than once is, really, more than enough.

Tiring.

Hope I can recover by today! Then can meetup with my darlings tomorrow and have a blast staying over! Haven't seen them for so long..though it's only been a week plus. Haha. Misses!! =)

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12:59 PM

I've never liked guys who put on a facade to make girls like them.

But I can't decide if this is worse, or sincerely trying too hard.

Either way, I don't like. To the point of irritation. I much prefer the days when we first knew each other..talking rubbish at work and simply having fun. Everything was natural and platonic with zero expectations. That's how it is with all my other friendships, whether guys or girls. Why does it have to change now, just because?..

Flu got progressively worse, so I decided to see a doc after work. Mummy kept asking me to ask for mc, but it turns out I didn't have to, cos' the doc told me not to go to work. So much for doctors being unwilling to give out mcs. And so I'm down with a virus..sucks la. I don't like taking antibiotics! Or any medicine, for that matter,

Tempted to go in to work tmr cos' I simply have too many things to do, but mummy will kill me la. Sighh. Only first week of work and already I'm taking medical leave..ohmans. It sounds so wrong can.

My throat hurts to the max and I hate it. Other than that, plus blocked nose and ear, I'm actually very okay. Haha. I just don't want to lose my voice.. =( Maybe it's a good thing ktv's fully booked on sat. At this rate, I confirm won't be able to sing by sat! Then I'll be even sadder!

Hope I recover by then sia..I don't want to waste my weekend being sick! Shouldn't have talked on the phone for so long just now..was sorely tempted to make an excuse and hang up, but..haiyah. He should have known better than to keep making me talk! Still say I spoke too softly..tmd.

I'm damn bitch la, shit. He was just being concerned. But like I said..going overboard actually ruins things.

Arghh I'm freaking annoyed! Don't want to think anymore. Just take the opportunity to sleep in tomorrow, get ultra rested and recover fast! Then I can continue with my normal life.

And..I want to keep that ease and normalcy, simplicity and contentment between us, always. Missya bestie. *huggs

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11:08 PM

If A > B > C, logically speaking, A should be > C, yes?

No.

Some things in life just simply defy logic, for no reason other than..choice.

And I'm seeing the irony of situations now, albeit a little too clearly. One scene juxtaposed against the other. I almost have a desire to laugh.

Still very sick and not recovering; this sucks. I used up practically all my colleagues' tissue boxes. Ultra madness. I just feel like taking a day off from work and everything else.

Saw a nice car sign while out just now.

"Princess on board".

I likee. But the sign wasn't fantastically pretty, though it was a sweet pink.

I like princess, and it sounds nice to be one. Nicer than queen.

And that's something I don't want to be, and was never meant to be.

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11:47 PM

And so I am officially sick. Sucks to the max!

Non-stop sniffling and sneezing has turned yours truly into the next rudolph for santa's sleigh. At least the throat doesn't hurt as much as last night though. But I feel a cough coming. =(

Last night was nightmarish, to say in the least. Till now, I still don't know what happened. Imagine my chagrin at receiving the news from my shocked cousin. Ohwells.

And the medicine's not working. =(

Had a pleasant start to my morning today! Thanks for being such a sweetie, my rainbow in the storm. =) Am ultra proud of myself for downing the entire bottle of luohanguo! Never did like that drink since young. Haha.

And yays, have a meeting tmr at 10am out of office, so I don't have to go office first! Can wakeup a wee bit later and catch a little more shut eye. Is that happiness, or what? =)

Am starting to love my job, despite knowing that it's only going to get tougher and tougher. So far it's still fairly deskbound; more so than I initially expected. But somehow I don't mind! My jakarta-based designer is tons of fun to skype/msn with! Of course we discuss work la..but can throw in some snippets of unrelated topics too. Haha.

And I just found out that my senior AE is from soka too! The world is so small can..her CFG was on the same day as mine, just that a different location. Haha. I still don't click extremely well with them in a group, cos' I don't know most of the work-related stuffs they discuss, but individually they're all really fun pple! It totally makes me glow to be able to say that I love my environment and the people I work with! Job included, and the nice clients I correspond with. =)

A good start to a day really makes all the difference in the world sia. A good ending's important too! Met up with dear siti and we spent the entire time over dinner updating each other on life's happenings. Totally miss school days and the time we spent in band! Reminiscing brings about such a truckload of varying emotions and accompanying wistfulness.

Longing for the past, yet thankful for the present. And hopeful for the future.

Life for me may be a rollercoaster ride, even now, but I'm so glad to have angels beside me who light the darkness and are always there for me. Love my darlings! I am one lucky girl indeed. =)

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11:32 PM

Omgoshh I haven't gone for so long without blogging in recent weeks! Just goes to show how busy life is at the moment. Or rather, work is. Haha.

Today was surprisingly less busy than I expected..last week was a mad rush! Had to work on saturday, then go for jap makeup class. Thankfully managed to reschedule my jap test till after ling comes back from japan! So we only had revision class yesterday. Then had to chiong to tuition. The weekend totally flew me by! Goodness.

I kind of miss my freedom already. Haha. The job's really quite high stress, and I haven't even begun to take over a quarter of what I'm supposed to be handling..scary thought. Just have to give myself things to look forward to everyday! I'm still available to go out after work okays..anybody wanna date me out please do! Lol.

Yays am gonna do dinner with siti after work tmr for a much-needed meetup! Happiness is when you have something wonderful to look forward to! =)

Got car decals for my lauyapok car! Tazzy and squirtle are cute to the max can! And squirtle's twin xiaowangba is ultra kawaii! Totally spoil any fierce biker image that bestie might have had. HAHA.

I think I'm so used to going out that when I'm home after work, I don't really know what to do now! So blog lor. Haha.

Okays gtg!

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8:33 PM

It's pretty amazing that I can still sit in front of my laptop now after staring at my comp in office for 10hours today. Omgoshh.

My eyes are freaking tired la. And I'm having a headache. Haha. Must be the rain also..it was so darn heavy when I left office that the 10min walk to the mrt felt like 10hours. Having an umbrella didn't help..I practically showered my way home.

Anyways! Super busy for a first day at work! Somehow I just felt totally comfortable..maybe cos' I already went to the company twice even before today. My colleagues are really, really nice! Although one or two of them intimidate me a little. Haha.

And super coincidental that the AE whom I'm replacing is also called geraldine! BB was joking that it's ultra convenient, don't have to change the name on the extension and all..they even contemplated letting me keep her company email add. Lol. But it's gonna be pretty confusing for clients I think..they're just going to assume I'm the same geraldine. Haha.

So many things to do that I hardly had time to rest my poor eyes. Vetting through design draft after draft is totally not easy peasy la! Sounds simple, just compare to the client's copy, but wahlau, really test eye power and observation.

I like it that we're supposed to keep skype and msn on the whole day in office though! And I have a webcam! Plus my monitor screen is really huge-ass. Haha. Can even listen to radio while working! Just press 4 buttons on the phone. How cool is that la. Lol.

Maybe cos' it's a shophouse office and it's really quite small, but all the more why it feels so homely. The pantry is just like some home kitchen. Very cosy and plenty of food! Guess it's a necessity since the designers tend to work late or have no time to go out for lunch.

Although I had to work late and emails of drafts kept flooding my mailbox, time passed pretty quickly! It really makes a difference if you enjoy what you're doing and like the environment. Haha. Let's just hope it can only get better and better! =)

I sound so cheery. Wheee. And while my headache is a little bothersome, I'm not super shagged or exhausted. Maybe cos' I just showered but..I think I'm starting to feel happier lately! Or rather, I find myself more prone to giving thanks for the little things in life, and for each day which passes happily. And that's good, right? =)

Caught death race last night! It's a damn good show! Go catch it okays, anyone out there who likes racing! Super cool la, the stunts and race and everything..my jaw was dropping like more than half the movie! Mel rates it 5 stars; I also think it pretty much deserves a high rating! Ultra nice way to end my supposed last day of freedom ytd. Love it! And I've totally missed going to the arcade..that car racing game is ultra cool! And my next drive has so totally gotta be an RX8!

This week is super duper busy busy busy..forgot to check if I need to work this saturday though. Still need to cram in 2 sessions of tuition in one weekend, plus I have makeup jap class on sat and the jap test on sunday! Die la. I haven't studied. Oops. And the notebook lings gave me for taking down jap notes is pretty much empty, so I ended up using it for work. =p

Nice night for sleeping! Although that walk from office to mrt was the most miserable part of my day. Totally no fun being soaked through to your skin. Think I must invest in a humongous raincoat and leave it in office. Haha.

And bern! So happy for you! Now our clique is fully-employed! Yays! =)

This has been one longgg entry mans. Shall stay online awhile more, try to get abit of jap done, then go to bed! Sleep that headache off.

Loves! =)

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10:11 PM

Always have, always will
I was mesmerised when I first met you
Wouldn't let myself believe
That you could step right out of my wildest dreams
But you didn't know
That secret part of me
Until we kissed and made it open up so easily

I always have
Even when it didn't show
I always will
You know that I just wanna touch you
Whenever you're close to me
I always have
Doesn't matter where we go
I always will
You know that I just wanna show you
Just how much you mean to me
Always have, always will

Everything that you give in to
Everyting you'll ever need
Is locked up somewhere deep inside of me
You gotta know
But more importantly
You've got to stay and hold me while we live this fantasy

I always have
Even when it didn't show
I always will
You know that I just wanna touch you
Whenever you're close to me
I always have
Doesn't matter where we go
I always will
You know that I just wanna show you
Just how much you mean to me

Sometimes we try too hard to please
We should let love come naturally
And sometimes I don't know
Just what you really do to me
That is O.K.
'cause it's all part of the mystery

I always have
Even when it didn't show
I always will
You know that I just wanna touch you
Whenever you're close to me
I always have
Doesn't matter where we go
I always will
You know that I just wanna show you
Just how much you mean to me
Always have, always will

For the longest time, everytime I heard this song I had no idea what the title was, or who it's sung by. I never listen to titles and artiste's name la. Haha. Love the tune though, it's catchy and happy! Finally found out the song title by accident! Yays. =)

Still not having pre-work jitters, although I officially start tmr. Must sleep early tonight! Super scared that my alarm won't ring, or I'll snooze it and simply oversleep. Nightmare! I think the kanchiong-ness will kick in tomorrow morning haha. Hope I can get to sleep easily tonight..

I just expended hell alot of air and energy blowing up one of those inflatable lanterns which mummy bought for anders. Doraemon in an airplane. So funny la. And saii, I was thinking how come so many years of playing in a band and practising breathing techniques don't seem to have worked. Then I realised that there's this stupid stopper inside. Wahlau! Really quite out of breath by the time I was done. I suspect I'm out of practice too..after not playing my instrument for so long. Sad-ed!

I think my jap test this week die liao la. Can't muster the same kind of motivation to study like I did back in ntu. And once I start work tmr, I really won't have time to study. Shitttt. =(

Slept alot last night but still very tired. Maybe walked too much just now..

And I think I'm really a spendthrift. Shit mans. My concept of the monetary value of things I see is getting very jialat. Most things to me fall into the "okay pricing" category, when they might be considered expensive to others. Diee! At the rate I'm earning income, it won't be enough to support my spending habits. Now I know why I totally need a high-paying job! Bleahh.

Let's just say I love my material comforts la. Money, to me, is meant to be spent (after setting aside an amount to save, that is). But I do draw the line at what should or shouldn't be spent on. Tens of thousands on a bag just doesn't quite make sense to me. I can think of many other things to do with that money. What the heck, I can go on a holiday! Or zhng my car! Hahaha.

Okays I've run out of things to blog about. No more excuses for not studying liao..and so it's back to jap. >_<

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4:44 PM

CFG's finally over!

Although I didn't feel the same kind of excitement beforehand as with my other band performances and miscellaneous events throughout the years, there was definitely some adrenaline rush and kanchiong-ness yesterday!

Matthew fell pretty sick last minute so we were one dancer down..but actually, that meant we had even number of dancers left, so it pretty much worked out for the "lan se de hai" part! And I had to take over his position to even out the formation, which meant a change in some dance steps. Eventually made a mistake during the performance haha. But I think we all did a good job! And I really had fun. =)

Thanks for coming down to support! =)

My makeup was freaking thick though; the eyeliner made me look damn scary up close. Haha. Pity the turnout wasn't even as good as we targeted, let alone surpass..but good effort everyone! Definitely a success! To the point that they say we may have another CFG next year!

Anyways, went to sign the contract today! Geri is officially employed! Happiness! Cos' it means income, even though not alot. I think I'm going to like my job and my colleagues. They seem pretty nice..quite a young bunch of people. Okays, let's make that, I'm going to love my job no matter what! How's that for a positive start. =p

And I found out that on days when I don't have to meet clients, I can dress down! Meaning jeans. Yippeeee! Everyone thinks that this means I can stick to my wardrobe but...why does everyone similarly forget that I own no bottoms with hemlines falling below the knee, and my tops are primarily tubes and spag straps in nature?

Need a serious major wardrobe overhaul mans. Even the formal wear I currently own are limited to 2 sets only. Eeks. And I am sooo gonna miss all my favourite outfits. =(

And so, went shopping today! I haven't spent so muchh and bought such a mountain of stuffs in a long while. Spending even before earning! But I prefer to see my purchases as investments. =p

I mean, really! I ended up with 2 new tops and skirts for work! Plus a new bag. And the best part is, the bulk of it can be worn both casual and to office! How's that for investment. Hahaha.

Bought other stuffs, but can't remember them offhand. Super happy shopping today! Just pretty tired from carrying all my shopping bags. Lol.

And I love my internship supervisor! She rocks to the max mans..even though her schedule's always oh-so-busy, she actually did up a reference for me right after I requested for one! And it's a darn glowing reference la. I feel almost embarrassed reading about myself in that light. Love miow to bits and pieces! =)

Okays I wanna get back to my hexic. I just totally suck at it I don't know why! =(

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11:11 PM