Managed to catch F1 live in action earlier!! =DDD

To think that I was still wondering in my last post, whether I will actually get to watch the F1 night race while they're still in singapore. Haha.

My darling's friend gave us free tickets! He tried to get the grandstand seats for us, but too bad, the original owners decided at the last minute that they wanted to go. No $1,388 seats, but nevertheless, we got the walkabout tickets!

Considering that I wasn't expecting to catch it even on tv this year, the tickets came as a reallyyy pleasant and exciting surprise. Haha. And our spot was really quite good! Saw all the cars up close and personal..and for other parts of the track which was out of sight, there was a big screen nearby for us to view. Wheee.

Wasted though, we didn't stay behind after the race to figure out what activities were there..we could actually have gone down to the pit to snap photos of the drivers and their cars! Shioks or what!

I don't think my boy enjoys F1 as much as I do, but the crazy speed, bright lights and eardrum-busting noise really gets me highh! Hahaha. Next year, I wanna get the grandstand tickets and watch in comfort!

Hamilton hamilton hamilton! =))

Also caught the ugly truth before we went to watch the night race; it's a totally hilarious show I swear! I laughed like crazy and almost teared can. Lol. Predictable plot, as usual, but execution of the storyline and the actors' portrayal of their characters makes it worth watching. Mb made a comment that almost all the movie-goers were couples. Which kinda makes sense, actually. Haha.

All in all, a fantastic way to wrap up the weekend! Hope the week about to start will sail by smoothly..

=)

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1:20 AM

And for the first time, I didn't have to go to the hospital alone for my tests.

My darling woke up ultra early to accompany me..even though he left office at 4am last night. And I was damn touched by what he told me on the way. Heart melting here, at the risk of sounding damn mushy. Haha.

The scope had never been easier to endure, the bloodtest a quick affair, and everything was over in 20mins! Yays. =)

Spent my afternoon shopping in town with mummy and the sister; ended up with so many shopping bags on a day where I didn't drive the car out. Mans..anyways, all the roads were blocked due to F1. I would probably have gotten lost trying to find an alternative route. =p

And this year, I hear myself saying again that I will buy the tickets to F1 next year. Lol. Let's see if this will materialise after all.

Listening to a youtube video on the celtic woman..my god, their voices are heavenly I swear! I'm practically having goosebumps listening to their rendition of "you raise me up". Go youtube it and listen for yourself! I wish I had even a quarter of that kind of voice.

Apparently, Hayley Westenra was once part of the group..haha. Gorgeous voices belonging to beautiful girls. Woots.

Kinda restless for a saturday day night; my boy's not around to entertain me. =(

I miss you.

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10:01 PM

Angst over now. The night was pretty good after all.

Met my boy and DA for dinner in chinatown; can't believe DA has never been to chinatown in the many times he's been to singapore! Thought he'd be staying pretty long this time, but seems like he'll be going back soon. Good thing we met!

The guys bought drinks and we sat by the singapore river to just chitchat the night away..nice way to pass time actually. =)

Was feeling a little out of sorts, and when I came home, I knew why..the dayima has dropped by once again. Kinda suspected it. I wonder if it's good or bad..haha. Hopefully tomorrow don't have to take mc.

So exhausted and lethargic. And the moodswings are abit scary. Hate all these accompanying symptoms with the entire "package" each month. Sighh.

Hope the bestie's grandma will be alright..please keep her in your prayers..

And mb finally told me something tonight which I didn't expect to hear for awhile, if ever at all. But it makes me happy. And it makes me melt. =)

Seriously tiredd. My eyes can't stay open.

I didn't say it, but...*ilu too.

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12:53 AM

Damn pissed off.

But nothing I can do about it.

I'm going to take my favourite girl's advice and do the silent treatment.

Don't I deserve better.

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7:38 PM

I absolutely detest clients who think that just because their rank is high, they can be unreasonable and make life difficult for those they work with.

I really pity the client I'm directly liaising with for a project..he puts in so much effort, gives really good suggestions and sees the BIG picture, but his stupid boss just totally undervalues him and doesn't appreciate his work.

It's almost scary how disillusioned with his work my client has become, after only a mere 7 months into his job. I still remember the very first time I met him at the start of the year, he was so eager and enthusiastic about his project. Now, he's just completely cui and disinterested in putting in additional effort. Like what he told me, it's not recognised anyway.

I think I'm really lucky, in comparison. Although I work shitty hours and get low pay, at least my bosses treat me really well. And I'm valued as an employee.

I like this client of mine. But completely dislike his boss. I shall try to make his life as simple as possible and highlight everything he has done, which his boss just simply doesn't seem to see. And chooses not to acknowledge. What an ass right.

I guess you can't always have your cake and eat it.

Anyhows, after that sucky meeting with the high-and-mighty boss, YH (my client) drove me to the photoshoot location. And it was surprisingly easy to talk to him! We were just chatting all the way there..jumping from topic to topic. Maybe it's cos' our age is really close. Haha. Thank god it wasn't one of those awkward car rides with tangible tension in the air.

Photoshoot was quite interesting..but I was really dressed in the wrong attire. And standing in heels for 4 hours kinda made me wanna collapse at the end of it. Haha. But I survived enough to do dinner with my boy and even walk one mrt station away. With me carrying a 1kg bag and him lugging a 20kg bag. I swear he has no concept of weight. I kept telling him, you're growing shorter and shorter right before my very eyes. And he kept saying, no la it's not heavy. SIAO. Lol.

Had a too-full dinner and so I said I wanted to walk around. By that, I meant walk around the shopping mall. But that boy brought me on a long walk to the next mrt station. And very clever of him, he threw my own words back at me: "You said you wanted a walk!"

...................

I can't argue that point. I did say that. HAHA. He'll really be the death of me someday.

But yet, I heart my baby so. =)

And this week promises to be short! Tomorrow's midweek already..and no working saturday this week! Shioks!

I shall think about my mountain of work when I go back to office tomorrow. And hopefully the bestie will be there! =)

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11:59 PM

Today was an ultra happening day!

Was supposed to meet nick early for breakfast, but I overslept..so he ended up having to wait for me. Oops. Haha.

Had breakfast at siglap macs! That workaholic was planning to go office and clear work after that (imagine, on a public hol!!), but my persuasion and his hesitation to go office saw an end to that intention. Lol.

In the end, he was the one who accompanied me on the location recce for tomorrow's photoshoot, and even took photos for me using his brand new dslr! That camera is super chio, I swear.

Made a quick trip to hort park just so he could play with his new toy..too bad, I was rushing for time so we had to cut short the nature-cum-photography trip. And we were both in the mood for icecream, so he drove us to vivocity to have ben & jerry's! Shiokness! =D

Double belgian waffle. Phish food. Chunky monkey. Hot fudge. Whipped cream. SINFUL. But I likeee. =p

Rushed like mad cos' my boy was gonna meet me at my place to go his friend's house for lunch..in the end he was so early, he ended up waiting for me. Lunch at maeng's was good! His fiancee prepared burmese laksa a.k.a coconut noodles and some kind of tea-leaves appetiser for us..I am really starting to love burmese food alot. And she said that she'll teach me how to make it next time! Yays. Haha.

The downpour stopped by the time we left, so the two of us plus his brother headed for sentosa. Weather was good! Not too sunny..met his brother's friends there and I got coerced into playing soccer. Bet he regretted asking me to play..I told him I can't kick a ball for nuts. Lol. Lost the game and still had to do push-ups. Still, it was fun! Just that I think I pulled some muscle in my right leg. Haha.

Drove down to peninsular for dinner cos' aung had craving for burmese food. And I tried shan khaw hswe! Don't know if I got the spelling right. Hehe. It's really yummy! The shop owners know them so well by now that they addressed mb by name..and now they know me too. Hahaha. Really admire the lady boss..she's local, but her burmese is totally fluent! I should start learning tooo. =p

I'm really enjoying learning about his country and culture and meeting his friends..although I'm always lost in my own world when they start jabbering away in their language, I still find it fun. =)

I just wonder if it's as easy for him to immerse into my world as I into his..somehow, I suspect he will never really get along with my group as well as I can talk to his. But ohwells, no matter for now..take things slowly.

And we had quite a heart-to-heart talk about something which matters to me. His reply pretty much rounded off a perfect day. =)

I don't want this to be yet another one of those short-lived dreams which turn nightmarish..I'm sick and tired of those nonsense. I'm going to follow someone's advice this time round and..make it work. We'll try, promise. =)

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12:24 AM

Just got back from an ultra filling and really good dinner!

Chilli crab and kidney mee sua. Yummilicious! =D

Didn't do very much today..ended up trying to sleep off a headache, which explains why I'm probably not gonna be able to sleep early tonight.

Anyhows! Caught gamer with my boy last night. It's not bad a show..extremely high-tech technology to me. Haha. I read some reviews that it wasn't good, but I personally thought the storyline wasn't half bad. Okay, so it wasn't the most creative plot, but the idea of playing a game controlling real humans was pretty intriguing.Of course, not to say that's not a sick idea, cos' it certainly is.

Still, not a bad watch. Anything with him is good la. =p

Chilled at indochine after the movie, where cats in the cradle was playing. The lead singer is quite a funny guy..haha. But I suspect there will be some people who take offence at his words. Lol.

Took a cab back since it was so late, and the driver was pretty much entertaining me throughout the ride. He actually told me I'm a "good girl" for not demanding my bf send me home in a cab. Lol! I mean, seriously, that's quite a stupid idea. I told the uncle, if my bf prints money, I wouldn't care that he'll have to shell out so much just to send me home and back. But since he doesn't, it simply makes no sense. Right?

Of course if he insists, that will be really sweet of him la. But too bad, my darling isn't like that. Just as well that I'm not picky about it. Haha.

The bf wants to go sentosa tomorrow, but I dropped him a bombshell saying that I need to conduct a location recce for tuesday's photoshoot. He started laughing in quite a resigned manner; not that I blame him. And if I go, he has to go too, since he's the producer! I can't have my crew not knowing where to shoot on tuesday right. Haha.

I do feel kinda bad la..alot of times, I've had to interrupt our dates by pulling out photoshoot schedules and whatnot to brief him on. I even brought along work materials on the trip last weekend, so that I could tell him everything he was supposed to know. I think he can't decide to laugh or cry. Haha. Everytime I do that he will tell me, not again..we can't even go out properly without discussing work. Lol. Well...I can't help it! There just isn't enough time in office.

What a pathetic excuse huh. Haha. I think I need to stop doing that and start drawing the line somewhere. It's such a dampener to talk shop when we're out.

Tomorrow will be the last day! After the recce, we'll go sentosa then I shall try never to bring work out with him again. =p

Ohh yes! I brought him along to supper with melvin and gang that night..four couples together at white tangerine! That was fun! Too bad more pple couldn't make it. It was so hilarious listening to him try and pronounce their names. Especially the chinese names. Lol.

Granted, there was a language/communication barrier between mb and them, but that can't be helped..I have the same problem with him too. Haha. But things will improve! =)

And my boy told me something last night that really made me happy. Haha. Let's hope it continues this way..

Falling for you.

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11:17 PM

My weekend getaway was unbelievably awesome! =D

The night coach to KL was super comfy, albeit freezing. Haha. Leg room was so huge, you could fit another person I think. Reached around 5am; mb booked us swiss garden hotel! Niceee!

His friends were so sweet, they drove all the way down at 5am in the morning to pass us the car they rented for him. It was quite hilarious though, cos' one of them lost the keys to the car we were supposed to use, and we had to make do with a really cuii one. Which would vibrate and shake like crazy when we went anything above 100km/h. LOL. Talk about speed control. =p

Anyways! We had breakfast before the sun was up, then they left for home..and home for them is like a 45min drive out of KL! He has some pretty amazing friends. =)

Mb then drove me around KL central, and he brought me to batu caves..that place is cool! Limestone caves..climbed the entire 272 steps to the top, where we saw the temple and many many monkeys!

Checked in at the hotel, then lazed awhile before driving to mid-valley mega mall. I swear it's called mega for a reason. Parking is so darn cheap though..as compared to singapore la. Met up with his friend for lunch before shopping! But seriously, the things there aren't cheap..faceshop in KL is even more expensive than in sg! Plus, I have the discount card over here. Makes no sense for me to shop there.

Didn't buy much cos' they were either too ex, or I can get the same thing in singapore without having to lug a big bag back.

The day got abit more hectic towards night..my boy brought me to the university where he studied, and we met more of his friends! Were kinda late though..didn't get to really tour his campus. But the place is like a mini town! They even have their own car repair workshop. Damn cute la! Totally self-sufficient mans.

And he's indeed mr popular. Everyone from the canteen workers to the security guards to ex-schoolmates all recognised him. Hahaha. Had dinner there with a few of them before leaving for putra jaya!

That place is really gorgeous at night..the lights and view and everything! And the mosques there are totally beautiful. He wasn't wrong when he told me the architecture there was fantastic. It really is!

His mongolian friend was with us and I was talking to him about everything under the sun. Haha.

Continued on to sunway for clubbing! There may no longer be an MOS in singapore, but sunway has euphoria by MOS! We were there early cos' free entry for ladies before 11pm..and it was completely empty la. Thank god the atmosphere picked up some as the night went on. Mb spent a bomb on opening bottles and such..that's what I adore about him. As long as his friends are happy, anything goes. =)

And his friends' turnout was....hugeee. I swear my social circle has widened internationally. Hahaha. They're really really nice people..especially the guys close to him. KZ told me, since I'm with him and all them myanmar pple, I must drink the myanmar way. And proceeded to pour me a glass of I-don't-know-what. But he knows I have lousy alcohol tolerance, so actually what he gave me can practically pass off as just mixer. What a sweet guy. Hahaha. And he said that next time whenever mb goes to msia to see them, I must go along and join them tooo. Talk about making the girl feel like she belongs in the clique. =)

Can't wait to go back again! For the first time in my life, I'm actually touring msia for real. And not just going back to the same old tourist spots that I've been going since I was a small girl. Such road trips are the best!!

Anyhows..we clubbed till the wee hours then went for supper. Unfortunately, my korean ramyeon sucked. Lol. Fell asleep the entire ride back and didn't even realise there was a thunderstorm and floods along the route. Left it to the guys to navigate their territory. Hahaha.

Sunday was laid back..slept till super late before having lunch and doing abit more shopping. And I bought krispy kreme home! Honestly..now that I've bought it and tried it, I don't really get the hype. Even with my sweet tooth, I found it a tad too sweet. Lol.

Coach back to sg was not bad too; less space and no personal tv, but dinner was provided! Pretty decent food. =)

Totally didn't wanna come back..especially to a crazy amount of work today. Ohwells. I'm just looking forward to more of such exciting short getaways to spice up my life! I wanna go msia eat seafood next..go sunway lagoon..clubbing again..everywhere!

Am loving life muchhlyy now. I hope it stays good for me..and us! =)

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12:16 AM

Work was shitty today. Got so overwhelmed and stressed that I almost wanted to break down.

Then my darling mira texted mb, who got so worried he called me straightaway to ask what was wrong. Haha. All that just to make me smile..did I mention how I just love them so? =p

My dreaded project is still on-going. Sighh.

Anyhows, the three of us caught dance flick at iluma's film grande! The seats are pretty decent and the space huge..very audience-friendly! And of course, the movie was damn stupid. Hahaha. I don't deny it was pretty funny la, but certainly dumb also. Then mira and I were tucking into burger king while watching. Lol.

And my boy was so cute, as usual. =D

Tickets and accommodation for KL finally booked! Save for the return trip..hope there are decent coach timings when coming back on sunday. I almost died when mb suggested to take the 11pm bus from KL and reach singapore at about 5am.

Machiam no need to work ar! What more he'll be busy with my photoshoots next week.

And I'm starting to be lost in my own world..sleepy sleepy, shall go to lalaland!

Goodnights!

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1:21 AM

Yet another one of those late late nights..got home not long ago. And as usual, mummy was less than happy. Ohwells, I can't please everyone if I wanna meet my deadlines at work. Clients come first; what to do?

Can't wait to sign off the publication tomorrow..then I'll be left with one less project!

Still crossing my fingers that the remaining photo shoot days will be as smooth as today's. =x

Mira was so funny just now, she told mb that she's bringing me out clubbing on wednesday night. Emphasising to him that it's ladies' night, no less. And he said that he must come along to keep an eye on other guys. Haha so cute! The two of us were laughing our asses off at his reaction.

Still haven't told him that what we're really gonna do, is simply catch a movie. =p I shall break the news to him tomorrow. Lol.

And that boy is such a blur producer can. He actually went for photoshoot without the wine! To think I even made a props list for him...so he called me this morning to ask where's the nearest supermarket. Talk about not knowing the area you work in. Haha.

In the end, I went to get the red wine since it was on the way, and rushed to the bus stop to pass it to him..I actually freaking ran in my heels because his bus was waiting at the stop. Practically threw the glass bottle towards him. Hahaha.

And that idiot texted me after that, "running in the morning is good for you". *me points third finger*

I swear he makes me wanna throttle him sometimes. Haha.

But it's nice knowing there's someone out there who makes you smile, voluntarily or not. Just listening to him mumble in his accent cracks me up to no end at times. Lol.

I can almost forgive the fact that he drags me to take the stairs instead of the escalator whenever we go out. =p

What's wonderful is having someone keep me sane in my times of insanity. Just having him around makes a whole world of difference..whether or not he knows it.

Looking forward to the weekend! =)

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1:06 AM

I swear today was a damn good day to round off a hectic week. And prep myself for another crazy week ahead.

Now that my throat feels allll better and I can eat in peace again, everything feels sunshiney! Had yummy prawn mee at kallang for lunch..followed by shopping in town with mummy and lings! Feels like it's been ages since I last went shopping. I keep buying clothes online lately. Lol.

Met up with my favourite boy for movies and dinner; G-Force is ultra cuteee! I have a sudden love for guinea pigs. The nicely groomed ones with shiny fur. Hahaha. Didn't watch the 3D one though, cos' there were no slots..but anyways mb doesn't feel the 3D technology is good now. What can I say since he's the expert? =p

It's a good catch though, full of laughs and animal action. I bet sales of guinea pigs will be ringing the cash registers at petshops soon. Don't such things always happen. Just look at the sale of clownfish when finding nemo was in theatres.

Dinner at glutton's bay was good too! But I prefer the or luat at old airport road. Must really drive down there someday to eat..the food there is yummilicious!

Caught part of a live band performance outside the esplanade; it's been a long time since I heard the sound of flutes and trumpets and whatnot. I miss my band days muchhlyy!

Really loved my day and the company..and I ate so much! Totally non-stop..from lunch to tea to round one of dinner and then round two...mygoshh. All the sinful food, no less. Must start running already..mb's nagging me to train for my marathon. Hahaha.

Have yet to catch coco avant chanel with my office bestie; hope we'll have time sometime in the coming week! Just leave work on time one day and go to the nearest theatre or something. I want to actually see the setting sun while leaving office. And not leave a few hours before sunrise. =x

Haven't firmed up the KL trip either..it's been dingdong-ing between KL and genting, which part of KL, car, coach or plane, and yada yada. Talk about last minute preparations! Mention of plans started so long ago but still nothing confirmed. And my boy keeps telling me he'll settle it..as if laa. Haha. If by tuesday still no news, I am totally gonna take matters into my own hands and do it my way.

Am seriously praying hard that the photoshoots for the coming week won't screw up..that fear's been nagging at me to no end. Until it ends without a hitch, I don't think I will stop worrying. Saturday's mess was enough to traumatise me for a long while..like what I told mb, first and last time. Anymore such mistakes, I'm dead. >_<

Okays I need to orh orh soon and reach office ultra early tomorrow..hate it when clients like to drop by even before our official opening time. Means I have no time to eat breakfast at my table! Sighh. Maybe if I go early enough, mb will be there. Then he can entertain me till he has to go for the shoot. Hahaha.

Happyness, or what? =)

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11:54 PM

What a long day!

Started off my working saturday with the realisation that I screwed up a project. The bosses were none too happy, and all I really wanted to do was dig a hole somewhere and hide inside. =(

At least things got slightly better..but for a half day, I ended up working till 8.30pm. Sucks! Was supposed to do dinner and a movie with mb, but we ended up having to skip the movie cos' the seats were all sold out..so we went Orchard Ion to shop for his essentials!

Got everything he needed just as uniqlo was closing. Haha. Then he brought me on a wild goose chase trying to find some wanton mee-cum-dessert stall. I swear my legs are aching now. With that guy ar..I think I need to switch from flats and heels to hiking/running shoes. LOL.

Didn't get to eat my or nee, but dinner was still good! And I was trying to teach him numbers in chinese over dessert. Super hilarious!

me: "Two is 二."
mb: "二?"
me: "And ten is 十. Twenty is just two plus ten!"
mb: "二十?"
me: "Yes! You know what's hundred?"
mb: "Hundred is ten plus zero! 十零!"
me: *falls off chair laughing*

I swear he's so cute. Especially with that accent of his. Hahaha.

And he can be quite a nag! I'm going to kena from him if I sleep late again tonight. =p

Ohh! Saw the doc again this morning before work..my usual doc on holiday, so this other doctor took over. And he was quite..erm..gay. Hahaha. The moment I walked in, he went, "Hello geraldine! Come sit down; what's wrong with you dear??" Very loudly too. Haha!

And he continued fussing over me, saying things like, "Let's check if you have a fever dear. Ohh good! No fever!" blah blah blah. The entire consultation took no more than 3 mins I think. I didn't even have a chance to warm the seat. Lol.

Was so amused when I left the clinic. Hahaha.

I think the medicine's pretty effective! Got prescribed stronger antibiotics for my "severe infection"; within an hour of taking it, I could swallow water without much pain! Woots!

Just wanna get this course of med over and done with, and I don't wanna step into any clinic for at least the next year or so. Had enough of being sick and polluting my system with medicine! *shudders*

Meeting lings tomorrow at last! Miss her muchlyy..haha. Shopping and a concert! Yays! =))

And my favourite boy's going to a hindi pub later, of all places. The weird places his friends hang out at! Then again..such venues can be pretty interesting huh. He wanted me to go along, but seriously, I doubt I would have fitted in such a place. Lol.

Don't think I have time to meet him tomorrow..and he'll be off on shoots again whole of next week. =( It makes no difference even if we work in the same company, really. I think I see people outside of office more than I see him sometimes.

Okays I shall not complain since I'm the one who scheduled the photoshoots. Ohwells.

Hope things will work out fine for my darling mira..shall bring her out to the movies and retail therapy next week! So many movies I wanna catch..coco avant chanel, time traveller's wife and g-force! =)

Okays time to shower before someone nags at me for sleeping late again. Haha.

Bliss! =)

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12:30 AM

My throat hurts sooo insanely, I just wanna get something to numb it. Arghhh.

Hopped into ed's car with him and mb, and had a yummy dinner at some coffeeshop nearby our office! The zhi char is really good! Must go there again sometime. Haha.

Ed dropped us back at office before going on home..I was resigned to staying late today cos' my workload is simply sky-high. But I didn't expect to stay till the wee hours again.

Swallowed pills for sore throat cos' I couldn't take it, but it did nothing to help. All it did was to make me so drowsy, I kept falling asleep in front of my monitor. Needless to say, I didn't get to complete checking of the entire publication..only halfway through.

Looks like I need to cram again tomorrow. Sighh.

Have this feeling mb's still in office working. He chased me home but stayed on..talk about practicing what you preach. Or not. Haha.

Not going to claim my time off after all..maybe I can claim it some other time. But need to ask the boss first. =x

Haven't booked for KL yet; don't even know who's going! I only know there's at least the 2 of us. Why so hard tfor them to decide leh..short weekend getaways are meant to be spontaneous. Unless you know you already something planned for that weekend. If not, everyone should just jump in and say yes!

I love random spontaneity. =D

Super duper shagged. Maybe I'll go in office a little later..

Oyasuminasai!

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2:32 AM

This is a pretty ungodly hour to be awake at, considering tomorrow's a work day..but seeing as how I got home really late and I have nothing to do while drying my hair..might as well blog. Haha.

Finally went to dim joy for dinner with darling mira, mb and glenn! Her recommendation is really good..the dimsum is yummilicious, ambience really great and price affordable! Just a tad inconvenient by public transport..turns out that it's like opposite chinatown plaza, but I was too late to go get dessert from glace! Wasted...

We polished off close to a hundred bucks' worth of dimsum. Haha. Quite amazing..but the amount of food we ordered wasn't little either. Took plenty of photos, but I gave up halfway to concentrate on my yummy dinner! People who love good dimsum, do give this place a try! It's a great place! =)

Night was still young, so after alot of deliberation and hemming and hawing, we found ourselves at cineleisure. And of all things to do, we bought alcohol from 7-eleven and sat down somewhere to drink and talk. All the way to town for that..I really don't know what we were thinking. Lol.

Didn't stay long cos' everyone wanted to catch their bus..so we split into two directions. I ended up sitting on the steps talking with mb till super late..way past my last bus. Haha. But it was a really good chat.

So contradictory la. Just yesterday I was ranting and fuming over some stupid small thing he did didn't do, and today I was melting all over again. He was really the perfect gentleman throughout dinner and pretty much after. When he pulled me aside and went "fuck!" after a speeding cyclist almost crashed into me, I think half of me melted into a puddle. LOL.

We talked quite abit..about all kinds of things..expectations..the past..future..etc etc. And I kind of formed my own opinions and understanding about certain things. Unfortunately, the situation doesn't seem any clearer to me now than it was before. Haha..

And I'm really not sure things can work out. We're so different..and what I learnt today reaffirmed what I suspected all along. Thinking too much is damn taxing..I don't like. =( Sometimes I wish life can be as simple as just doing what we wanna do, and if it doesn't work out fine, then just drop it.

But where feelings are involved..it's never so simple.

I couldn't answer his question earlier about the "percentage". I would have loved to give an affirmative reply, but I just somehow couldn't. It seems like too much is at stake. I don't really dare to go for it. Which is very out of character for me, cos' if I want something, I'll just work my way towards it..or when it comes along, I'll just jump in.

I hate having to think so much! And therein lies that dreaded question once more..am I willing to compromise and sacrifice so much? Is it gonna be worth it?

I think I need to stop falling for the wrong people.

Throat's still hurting like a bitch, and I'm damn scared it's going to keep me up all night again. I just don't get why the sore throat never seems to stay away for long! It's totally driving me nuts! Baskettt.

Guess it's bedtime..tomorrow sure to be a zombie. I hope he doesn't do something dumb to piss me off again. I need to start getting the picture clear before we both annoy each other for the wrong reasons. Haha.

Mans..not even together and already so many problems. This is so ridiculous!

Maybe I need to stop treating you like a stranger in office.

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