Didn't expect to have dinner tonight, but I did! Timely text message just as I left office for home.
Decent enough meal with pretty good company; the sea breeze was really cold tonight!
But something feels different somehow..I don't know laa.Played abit with a really adorable beagle named peanut! Seriously a hyperactive puppy with a really nice owner. I love how doggies can bring complete strangers together to exchange smiles and strike up a conversation. =)
I think I'm going to spend the next month or two OT-ing every single night. Sighh.
The boss wanted to take over one of my projects cos' I have
too many on hand, but I declined. Sounds kinda stupid, but I think it's for the better, really. Probably only my colleagues will understand why, and even agree with my decision. Lol.
I really kinda regret my perm. It's damn bloody
cuii la. Instead of making my hair more manageable and less frizzy, it seems to be adding on the mess. People say curls are legitimate mess, but this wasn't what I had in mind when I stepped into the salon on impuse. Ohwells.
Must stop blow-drying my hair. It's drying it out even more. =(
Have the urge to go and perm the really small and curly curls which will give my whole head a bombastic and wild look. Then go and dye and highlight some super happening colour. Lol. Maybe next timeeee. I can imagine people thinking that I've gone crazy. =p
Watched the latest episode of FMA; now I know what nick was talking about when he said that he doesn't understand the current ep. I was telling him, how hard can it be to understand? But I'm kinda lost too. Hahaha.
On a random note, the ex from quite awhile back dropped me a message which I didn't know how to reply to. Of all things, those were the last three words I expected to see. It's been, what, two years or longer?
I've forgotten how it feels like to really love, come to think of it. The last r/s not so long ago..I wonder how much of it actually constituted love. Maybe it was just those impulsive emotions at work.
I think a part of me gave up on the belief that "
the greatest happiness in life is to love and be loved in return" when the second r/s ended. When you put your all into something and it just fails so completely, it isn't easy to maintain the same optimistic outlook. Suddenly, all previously-held beliefs seem idealistic and cynicism simply takes over.
I do still believe in fairytale endings; just look at mel and john. But I also acknowledge that not every girl is going to be lucky enough to meet her prince charming in this lifetime.
At least there's still
me to be good to myself.
Learn to love youself, before you can be capable of loving others.I need to love myself alot more. 
