Had a happening weekend! Been out everyday since after work on Thursday..and going shopping with the bff laters. =)
This long weekend has been good..and in all honesty, I'm not looking forward to the start of the work week tomorrow. It's not so much of dreading monday blues..it's more like the NC project is this worm in my tummy that gnaws at me and makes me feel queasy.
And the thought of that colleague of mine..*shudders* I think that's the
real "worm".
I'm fairly new still, even after about 6 months here. But she's
ultra new.
I don't dislike her..in fact, I thought she's a pretty nice girl since the day she came in. Maybe it's just unfortunate that her first major web project is working with me, an IT idiot who knows nothing about web. Incidentally, it's also
my first web project. It doesn't help that I'm not trained in any area of web design and technics can.
Seriously..she could have talked it over with me if my methods weren't the best, cos' how the hell would I realise that handling a print and web project is completely different in approach? I was adopting a trial-and-error style..maybe it's just
suay that two newbies are put on a project together. One doesn't know hoots about the most efficient way to work with web, while the other opts to suffer in silence, only to cry in office and everyone knows it but me.
Fabulous, or
what?
I feel bad; I really do. I apologised on skype cos' that's how we always communicate, and there just wasn't an opportunity to talk. But no reply. Like, zero. Nada.
Nothing.
Hello..will an "okay" kill? At least let me know that apology accepted right?
We're all learning here, come on..I'm not some super
lao jiao trying to make things difficult for her. It's damn difficult for me too can. She stresses over giving me what I want, but ultimately, she has seniors to help her, she can discuss with me for an extended deadline. I'm the one who has to answer to my bosses when I can't meet the deadline, and answer to the
kanchiong-spidey client.
Be nice, can? She's new, yes, I agree it's overwhelming and she shouldn't have to go through this so soon. But since the apology was given, acknowledge at least. Even if grudgingly, reluctantly.
I guess I'm very
dui and
dulan that she didn't even act like I apologised. Now, I feel so awkward around her. Baskett. So is it all my fault?
At least I apologised to my boss and she said it's okay..everyone's learning. Even my senior told me not to worry or stress..we're all in it together and we'll all help one another. They really made me feel better..but that didn't stop the tears in the toilet.
That kind of in-office stress, sucks to the
max.
Thank god for other nice colleagues. Who have since become more like friends, really.
I like my job. I love my workplace and people around me. But sometimes..I just wish people can be more understanding.
Now it looks as though I'm the big baddie who bullied her and refused to apologise. Dots.
Just wanna get the project over and done with. And hopefully less web projects with her. Just to give myself and her less hell, I'll make sure I know all the approaches to handling a web project from now on. So she will no longer have the chance to say that I'm over-stressing her.
Like hell I don't understand how it feels like. My very first project was a nightmare for not just me, but everyone else in the company. Now,
that's real stress. When even your bosses are involved in a "showdown" with the client.
Don't know her la. I think I'll just keep out of her way from now on. I don't like not getting along with people, but she gives me no choice. Forget it.
Shall just enjoy the rest of my sunday and hope I don't have to talk much to her tomorrow onwards. Well, at least I know I tried.
Sometimes, it just has to be enough even though you know it isn't. 
