Am in a pretty good mood today cos' I cleared the air with that colleague of mine!
Okay la, not so much of trashed things out; rather, we kind of communicated to each other the reason behind our initial strained working relationship and what to expect of each other and everyone else..super glad that the tension has lifted somewhat! =)
Other than that, it's just been another busy busy day at work..
Realised that time passes me by really quickly. In the blink of an eye, it's already mid-april. I guess before I know it, 2009 will have come and gone, and it'll be a brand new year again.
It's a little unsettling the way my minutes, hours and days whizz by and I'm caught up in the whirl of work and whatnot. Came as a slight surprise when I suddenly asked myself, do I even know what matters anymore?
And..I'm still lacking a real answer actually. I don't really know..is it work? Not quite, because I don't intend to become a slave to my work. Is it family? But how so, when I prefer to stay away to avoid conflicts?
I guess everyone and everything around me still matters..and always will. But at some point in life, I do feel abit directionless and I think to myself, is this how the next 20, 30 years are gonna be like?
I want more meaning to my life. I don't just wanna sit in office for 12 hours or more each day, hardly ever seeing the sun set, and rushing through gatherings with my friends. I love our meetups, but sometimes it seems to take so much effort to meet. And I find that as the days pass, the people I can randomly call out on impulse are getting so much lesser.
Itching to travel..but just talking about travelling brings forth a whole new issue of organising trips and whatnot. Which eventually, typically, end up in a no-go. How nice if I could just take off with a day's notice, like the super-rushed tioman trip I went on with bern last year.
But work is a commitment I can't just drop within a day's notice..
The many, many travel plans lining my diary have suddenly faded to dust. From deciding
which trip to go on because of a clash in timings, it has since become
no trip to plan for.
Feel like taking a weekend off to the kelong and soak in the tranquility of being in the middle of the sea. Taking in the gorgeous sunrise and sunset, and whiling my time away doing nothing but fish and enjoy the sea breeze. Going backwards into a watery civilisation, where simplicity rules.
The walk to the end of changi beach that night was tiring, but such an eye-opener. Never knew such a place existed here in singapore..nick really knows super alot of nice places! From my running kaki to my long-walks kaki toooo. Hahaha.
Time I started running and training liao..the duathlon's next week and I haven't so much as ran a single step since the suburban race. Goshh. Unfit, or what.
Wanna watch soccer but it's going to be so darn late..damn.
Maybe I should just go and sleep earlier. Then I can stop relying on coffee everyday. Back to my bad habit..ohwells.
I'm starting to babble. I need a getaway. 
