So much has happened in the past few days! Been staying at the tpy home for certain reasons, hence the lack of internet access. Which translates into the inability to blog.
And great, I kind of forgot things along the way which I wanted to blog about. Dots.
Been shuttling between home and bkt panjang for the funeral wake..quite sad that my cousins have to go through what I endured almost a year ago. That all-too-familiar feeling, with scenes from last year's sadness replaying in my mind over and over again.
Thought that I've been doing a pretty good job with coping, and staying strong like how others have been urging me to. I think I haven't been doing a bad job, but it still hurts la.
Time heals all wounds, but the scars will always remain.It's been a rough patch for the extended family..in less than a year, we've held 3 funerals. My daddy, my ah gong, my auntie..I'm becoming so familiar with the funeral rites and routes to the columbarium that I think it just sounds so wrong. Haii.
And ironically, in both a good and bad way, this has allowed me to become slightly closer to the cousins I never really knew. Related by blood, but that's about it. For the first time in my life, I actually texted my elder cousin, and found out the name of the younger one.
This kind of feeling...it's nothing short of
bittersweet. That it had to take such sad events to bring about this tentatively emerging bond.
Mel commented that I had alot to sms tonight..was walking and eating and talking while texting. The bulk of it went to the younger cousin. In a way..he's like the younger brother I never had. Really wonder why did we wait so long before taking the initiative to be there for one another. That's why I say..
ironic. But I'm glad that we're striking up firm ties and I'm not going to let go of it, no matter what. It's time I really started cherishing what's important, kinship and all. Daddy would have been happy. =)
Ohwells..death is a part of life, the beginning of the end which brings everything to full circle. It's inevitable, so the only way is to make sure the process leading to it doesn't involve any regrets after.
It's been a tiring day, shuttling from home to the funeral, sending them to the crematorium and back and blah blah..I think I travelled PIE about
7 times today. Was so shagged on the way home that I almost fell asleep along the expressway. Really spaced out for that few intervals here and there while driving..
On a happier note, dinner was pretty good! Although we ended up not shopping much, didn't catch the intended movie, and couldn't find anything exciting to do. Shit mans I feel like a boring person. Haha.
And I realised that I'm very scaredy-cat at the wheel now. No thanks (or should I say,
all thanks) to my mum for making me the driver I am now. Puii.
Ohh! There was this poor little kid who was crying and running around the mall just now, looking for his mummy. In the end we brought him to the information counter to report his separation from his parents..and so coincidentally, his father was at the counter reporting that he lost his kid!
It was quite funny seeing as how the dad looked as though he wanted to scold mel and I. Haha. I think he must have thought we took his son away or something. But afterward he was quite grateful. Haha. Think that little boy must have run quite a distance.
And he's really quite cuteee! Chubby cheeks but the poor little darling had tears rolling down his face..he was so trusting when I wanted to hold his hand to bring him to the counter. And he allowed me to carry him without any fuss! Aww...I love kids. =)
Had 2 supper outings this week too! Really very fun..celebrating the 3 guys' birthdays and just chilling out. I think such outings should be made compulsory like once a week or every fortnightly. Gives me something to look forward to!
Looking forward to the next few weeks all the way into the new year, cos' there's something on almost every week. Long weekend this week so it's less one work day! And the following weekend is lings' wedding already...so exciting!
Crap I haven't bought my evening dress!!
And xmas is coming! Followed by new year..and CNY and so on..yippeee. =)
Work is getting crazy and I'm actually feeling so much stress that I wanna unplug the telephone line. Haha. But I'm still trying to cope and overcome the challenges I face! At least I'm happy where I am. =)
And the bosses' wedding was so romantic..totally a match made in heaven! Really happy for them, and the rest of us were trigger-happy too! Trigger as in the camwhoring part. Hahaha. Need to post pics up soon!
Ktv tomorrow,
I c a n n o t w a i t!!! Excited to the MAX!!
Pity that probably can't join cam'on for prawning and bbq though..I miss them all onions!!
Life is pretty much back on track, and I'm enjoying each day as much as I can. I still wish I can turn back time and ask for that one day, but I know that's pointless. The memories flash by, lingering, some hurting. I try not to dwell, but sometimes that's just so impossible. But I know that's not what you want, so I shall try my best and be the daddy's girl I always was, and always will be.And come 31st..that will be a true test. Love you daddy. 
