I just realised that I spend a
ridiculous amount of money each month. Omgoshh to the
max!
Now that I'm suddenly left with no more tuition kids, it's time to tighten the purse strings and stop the incessant cashflow
outwards. Since I'm not as willing to compromise on going out less, I shall just have to curb spending whenever I'm out.
Whoever hangs out with me from now on (usually only that selected few), stop me from impulse buys and
attas dining choices okays! Your help is greatly appreciated. =D
Came across a really meaningful webby today which started to make me think:
What do you want to do before you die?Such simple words, yet such a thought-provoking line. And the use of polaroids made me miss the spontaneity of it all.
Someone told me, in answer to my msn nick: go out with the one you love.
I love many people, in all the different ways. For me, love is a multi-faceted thing. But the one true love I have yet to meet..wells. I'm not very bothered by it anymore. Even if I were to die tomorrow and I have yet to meet him, then so be it.
After all, the one I love the most is no longer around, anyway.
But really, before I die, I want to just give and receive hugs. Make the people around me smile. Cos' when I know they're happy, I'll die happy, too.
That's what I want. =)
The time to myself at home today made me recall the days before I started working. Now, time alone is so hard to come by. I can't take MC or leave without giving some thought to what goes on in the office, and the status of my projects.
Is this how it's going to be like the next few years?
Talking to the bff made me think again about what it is that I really want; the dream deep down inside which I want to fulfil soon. Hopefully before I hit 30. Seeing as how it's almost end 2008..that gives me about 7 more years. Judging by my current pay, it's a pretty tough call to raise that much capital. If my working hours weren't so long, I can at least take on more than one job.
So many paths in life to take, but only one will lead to an ideal ending. I wonder, just how do people decide which path is the right one? Follow your heart, or follow logic? Where logic is bounded by societal expectations, responsibilities and simply what is "right".
Sometimes, just being willing to take risks isn't enough. Reports of those whose risk-taking attitudes pay off are merely 1 out of 10. And there are so many other factors to consider in risk-taking, aside from the moolah involved.
Maybe it's better not to get married at all. Then I won't be tied down by having a family to support. I used to think that getting married would be a real big deal in my life; I still do entertain that thought from time to time, dreaming of my perfect wedding. But as the years pass, that thought grows dimmer and dimmer.
Perhaps I've become a committment-phobe after all this time. Perhaps I learnt the wrong things from my ex. Although I'm glad he finally picked up something in the time we were together. Something which we argued over, something which I could never compromise. The something which, unfortunately, told me he wasn't for me.
Cherish your family.This has been a fairly long blogpost, and pretty reflective to a certain extent. Shucks I sound like I'm writing some history or social studies essay.
Certain extent indeed.
I guess this is what being home all day does to you. Plus the rainy weather which simply mutes every kind of hyperactive mood..daddy would have felt gloomy without the sun.
Suddenly I feel like going to his niche and just sit there and talk, while he listens like he always used to. They should open 24hours, really. People like me have no time to go when they're open in the day..
It's going to be a year soon..time passes so fast. But the wound hasn't healed very much. And even if it does heal someday, the scar will be forever.
Before I die, what I really want is to see you again. 
