I don't know why time seems to be passing so slowly tonight.
Thought it's already at least 2plus, 3am, but nope, it's only 1plus in the morning.
Long day today, what with interview stress and tuition at night. Surprisingly, though, I'm not really sleepy now..can't quite get to sleep though I was tiredd earlier.
My emotions are on a rollercoaster ride; it's driving me
nuts. Swinging from one extreme to the other. Arghhh.
I was, pretty amazingly, not very nervous before the interview today. I think I was feeling more hot and bothered by the noonday heat which turned to strong winds and rain just before I left the house. Anyways! Interview went pretty well..felt more like a conversation with a friend rather than being interviewed by the account director.
And for those who are wondering,
no, I did not apply for an accounting-related position. Everyone so far who's heard the word "account" in the job title are near-flabbergasted that I would actually consider an accounting based job. Haha. Please la, those who know me will know that my accounting is CMI to the max.
Hoping that maybe I can get an affirmative reply soon! I like the fact that the company's quarters is shophouse-style. And that they're not averse to hiring fresh grads. I like my interviewer! Super nice and pretty lady. =)
I sound so chipper here now, but barely 2 hours ago, I was totally down in the dumps. And I don't know why!
It's not good to think too much. Worst still when the thoughts are all random and pop up with no warning whatsoever, no particular sequence, and completely no link to one another.
dontthinksomuchdontthinksomuch.I
badly need to meetup with/talk to my buddy. But he's so busy with work..sighh. I miss those
days nights of hours-long phonechats and yakking still more whenever we meet.
I miss my number one! I have so
many many million gazillion things to tell you..I just need to let loose a barrage of emotions mans. Seriously. And the other person I'd like to yak to is also, unfortunately for me, very busy.
I can't find the pictures I want!! Or rather,
he wants needs. Love the
www but sometimes it's just too
huge to narrow down to the specifics. Not everything can be googled, really. Info overload to the max.
I need to get my emo under control..I hate to lose control, and it doubly sucks when more than one person asks if you're alright.
Almost all the time when I say I am, it's a lie. What can I say, I'm a good liar.But now, I don't know why I'm not alright. Though I suspect the answer will be brought forth with a little probing deep into the recesses of the place I call my heart.
Maybe I just don't
want to know. Escapism, yeah yeah.
It's back to what I thought I overcame..although at one period of time things got so bad, it was as though I was leading a double life.
Shit la I think I'm totally typing rubbish, and I don't know what I'm saying. As a person I'm already quite random, but you should just see what goes on in my mind and head.
Absolute mayhem.
My life is in a mess. I feel damn crap.
How possible it is to feel lonely in a crowd. 
