August is almost over, and still I haven't quite found my direction. Not so much of direction in life; rather, direction in
work. I certainly don't equate work
to life.
Lings' question the other day about what I really want to do got me thinking about the path I'm still undecided on. Seems like all the answers and options I gave her in reply point to anything and everything unrelated to what I studied. Haha.
I don't regret going into business, although I do wonder at times how it'd be like now if I followed my heart and studied english literature or psychology instead. A part of me still wants to, actually. I'd much rather be a student. But really, I enjoy the studying process, stress from projects and assignments nonwithstanding. Lol.
While I enjoyed (almost all) my modules in ntu, I don't have this overwhelming urge to find a job related to my degree. Don't ask me why; I just don't.
I'm still stressed over being unemployed, and hoping for more interviews while at the same time, I really don't enjoy the stress which comes with them. Pretty much paradoxical. Haha.
Funny thing is, I have many people and friends telling me not to rush into looking for a first job, cos' it's important to find something suitable. And of them all, they're pretty much divided into 2 categories: follow your passion (which usually means low salary) vs find a high paying job in a recognised company (so that it's easier to switch jobs in future).
Headache to the
max.
Saw an interesting email just now which really made me sit up. I think I'll try for it and see how. Chances of getting it are pretty low, but I have nothing to lose anyways. Just try lor. If
heng heng I really
do get it, then happiness! =)
And no, it's not applying for a job. Haha.
Supposed to go on the singapore flyer later, but looking at the weather, no idea if we're still going. I want to see a gorgeous sunset! Please don't rain. =(
Suddenly have this urge to go out to sea. Or high up somewhere in some mountain. At least, I know such places can give me a pretty view of a sunset to remember.
Was scrolling through my photo gallery earlier, and saw so many pictures I've taken the past 3 years with all the different groups of people in my life. It's like watching a still movie of my life playing in front of me, and all the swirling emotions which accompany every snapshot.
Happiness, sadness, excitement, innocence, regret, contentment.And so much more.I typed an entire paragraph but deleted it after re-reading. Feel like smacking myself for putting down those thoughts in words. Arghh. What's over is over. No point reminiscing about what will never be.
Yikes I don't like this entry. Sounds so moody and unlike me. I think being cooped up all day at home is really bad. I totally need to get out there and do something! Can't slack legitimately, so I guess the only thing left for me to do is work. What the heck, even if I want to learn something, I need money. And so it all boils down to the same thing: find a job! Puiii.
I want to travel. Go somewhere far away. Nearby also can. I want to snorkel again!
Sighh. 
