Thank god I managed to get out of the house, away from the storm.

Solace in running, something I haven't felt the need to do for quite awhile now.

I was desperate to the point of wanting to jump from the balcony. Heng I stay on the 2nd floor.

Thankyouu lings, for always covering up for me..if you said no to running, I think I would really have jumped. Haha..

Feel loads better now, after venting my frustrations at ecp and in a letter. Thank you too, for taking in my emo-ness and exasperation.

Feels good to run again, and it's really much easier at ecp as compared to ntu. No crazy slopes, don't have to look out for traffic..I should make this a habit. Plus, it gives me a legitimate reason to get away from what upsets me.

Ling is right; I can't be running away from the problem forever. No matter how much I want to move out or look for a job which requires a high intensity of travel, it's not going to help solve my problem.

Just like I was telling lings, the days I stayed in hall were the best. Only go home on weekends, no chance to argue or start cold wars. I definitely prefer it that way; only thing I didn't like was not being able to spend more time with daddy.

Offices should come with dormitories too. For problematic employees like me. Haha.

Don't know tmr how. Chiong to take photos then chiong back home before her. Abit hard, but if all goes well, I should be able to do it. Must plan my time carefully..

Sounds so tiring right. Like playing a cat-and-mouse game. Don't know why am I doing this either. But I hate the feeling of being imprisoned within my own home. What the heck, it doesn't even feel like a home.

Heng this house has 2 storeys; I can hide at whichever level she isn't at.

That line sounds damn wrong. Haha. But I swear, that's what I've been doing the whole night.

Damn tiredd of this life.

How long more does she plan to control me like this anyways. Once I start work, what can she do to me right.

Amazing at how this is turning out to be my greatest motivation to find a job now. So I can stay away from home and her.

Heck, I should just find a job overseas.

Shall start looking tomorrow. Meet less often, less friction, which equates to less conflict.

And in my opinion, that sounds the best now.

Human relations are so....arghh.

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