I think I've been rather lazy to blog lately. Or maybe I'm getting lousy at forming words into sentences and paragraphs to show how I feel.

Convocation came and went, and it's left me with a rather empty feeling inside. To put it more aptly, it's a bittersweet emotion.

I still remember nbs foc as my first memory of ntu. The fun, the laughter, the lack of sleep, sand, sun, sweat, water...getting ridiculously dirty with flour, soya sauce, every over thing imaginable..

And the friendships forged.

Following the crazy fun were lectures and tutorials..gone are the days of trying to wake up on time for 8.30am classes, only to succuumb to sleep eventually. Worrying over undone tutorials and the tons of projects and presentations which formed a core part of my ntu life..the frequent suppers, walks in the middle of the night, jogging around ntu, star-gazing..

3 years has really passed by in a flash. And all too soon, we're all dressed in identical academic dresses with the mortarboard pinned firmly atop our heads. Suddenly, the weight of the world starts to sit on our shoulders, even as the innocence of being students starts to wear off.

It's bye to classes, skipping tutorials, gossiping over lunch, agonising over projects and datelines, feeling totally at home at school...and hello to the real world.

For me, I don't know if I'm lucky or not, but I'm still standing on the line which separates these 2 worlds. No longer a student, but not yet a working adult. Maybe it's precisely because of my position, that I can see so clearly what I've reluctantly left behind, and what I'm hesitant to step into.

I haven't described aptly all that I feel, partly cos' it's a mess of emotions, and partly cos' I'm losing my ability to be descriptive. Haha.

But really, "bittersweet" is the most suitable word to use now.

I don't wanna have to grow up so soon, but all good things must come to an end.

Just always remember to keep those memories close by, and the hardships in life will be easier to bear.

A new chapter in life now..no idea what it'll bring about, but whatever I have around me now, they make me happy. Whether people, things, or events.

I'm enjoying an addiction of the sweetest kind now, and loving every moment of it. Maybe it's one-sided, maybe it won't last much longer, maybe it'll just be a fleeting memory one day but...for now, I'm just cherishing it as best as I can. =) It's seldom that I meet people who can make me feel this way. Haha.

Happiness is..... =)

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