Sometimes I wonder if I have split personalities. Or rather, multiple personalities, even.

With family and friends, I'm a different person. Even within family, I probably appear to act differently to certain members. With friends..whoaa. I don't even wanna think about how many sides of me have been presented thus far.

Thinking about it...I guess I react according to the characters of those around me. So strange huh..or maybe I just have very different groups of friends.

Then again, maybe it's just me.

Had a rude awakening 2 days ago; don't think it's something I'll be forgetting anytime soon.

I shudder to think that it's something which may happen again. And I don't know if the current calm after that storm is here to stay, or just a facade for more nightmares to come.

It's so tiring to live sometimes. So many thousands of problems and headaches, all from different sources. All with varying consequences, and the only similarity being, no solution in sight.

Yeah I probably look all carefree, slacking my days away with no job in sight, but who really knows what goes on in my mind, and what I've had to endure all this while?..

I told a friend not too long ago, to just focus on one problem at a time. Leave the rest arranged in order of priority. Settle for a temporary solution, before moving on to headache over others. It's so easy to say, but so difficult to execute. Truth be told, I don't even know where to begin for myself.

I wonder...was I really as terrible as the picture painted out to me? Did I not merit to anything after all? Then again..this is something I can never find out. Few months too late, a lifetime too early..

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